That may sound like it. The truth is it is not. My purpose in life is lost along the way. I don't know what I am living for. All the while I thought I wanted to be *[be] ready for the run.
* If that is the case, then I have to get rid of my desire to smoke. That seems to be lingering in my head.
I almost decided that I should continue smoking until I die. I had lost the desire to live knowing there was no purpose beyond merely existing.
This is part of the withdrawal symptom.
So the run i[n] (is) the purpose. Then I shall run. I will go cold turkey with my smoking cessation.
Tomorrow, I will do my KL Walk with Lizzie.
Bear in mind, that I am experiencing the withdrawal blues.
If not for the run, I will be happy smoking my life away.
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SJ 4964
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