>>>#20/2/24 I will keep on repeating myself

 I have nothing new to write.  Hence I will keep on repeating myself.  It seems that there is a limit to what I can write.

Well, I can make up some stories but that will defeat the purpose.  I am the official scribe.  So I don't make up stories.  I only write what was told to me.  Beyond that, I don't know.

I think a lot about my marriages.  Of what each marriage means.  Of how fragile the conditions for the marriages to happen.  Of how uncertain the future is.  Of how much I have to rely on the cipher texts to give me the assurance for the marriages to happen.

Then I wonder if that is what I really want?  Is that what you want, Sarah?  For me to have 4 wives?  If it is the Girls' Power, I'm all for it.  If it is for my personal pleasure, I am already complete.

Perhaps I give you my idea of a blissful life.  This very one.  On 24/12/24 I shall complete my assignment at the Lote Tree and then, I am back the way I am.  Being a loner, writing, and listening to the radio.

I smoke, I stay up all night.  Sleep when I am tired and eat when I am hungry.  Just waiting for death to take me to my home away from home.

I achieved nothing for the past 25 years.  I was hopeful of ONE TRIBE.  That doesn't happen.  People still worship the Stone.  So I don't deserve my place among the Celestial Beings.  I fail in my mission.

These are just fiction.  Only work if people believe in it.  Otherwise, the Flight Path is just a nice story.

That is the script that [] (is) playing in my mind.

I need to be patient and steadfast.  We have 10 months to go.  That is 10 months of Doji,  the Apple, and No Apple, the pressure point.

The deadline is one thing.  At the same time, I cannot crack under pressure.  Firstly, I must have the confidence to be paid.  That i[t] (is) the crux of the matter.  I need to win my independence.

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