>>>#11/2/24 The Magical Days Begins

 I am not sleepy.  So I write a bit...

This is for you Sarah.  Last year was a really bad year for us.  I was so caught up with work that I forgot our wedding anniversary!

I will not let that happen again, I promise.  I am so sorry if I hurt you.

So from now on, I make a point to talk about us every day so that I remember how fortunate I am to have somebody as loyal and committed as you.

I guess we went through the honeymoon phase even before our real honeymoon started.

By now you can see that I can be a real jackass at times.  Not that I don't care, it's just that I have an affective condition.

It's not an easy condition to live with.

Lizzie understands it well.  So she let me be.  Don't worry, I come around.

I love you so much, baby.  If it is up to me, I don't give a hoot about the money.  However, that money is to buy my independence so that I can marry you.

Remember our early days?  Why don't we go back to that time when it was just us.  Is it already too late to back down?

We kept on adding that we lost touch with what was real.  I forgot that you are real, Lizzie is real, and the kids are real.  I begin to wonder if Kristina and Mira are real.

Sometimes I wasn't aware I could hurt you with my actions.  It [] (is) still not too late for us.

I call off Kristina and Mira.  They are not real.  You are real.  I love you so much, my darling.  I was all over the place.  I was even caught up with Elsa for the longest time.

My illness has subsided to a manageable level.  Part of it is because of the mania.  I made a promise to myself to contain my illness to my level best.

So this New Year, let's start on a fresh start.  Let dissolve the House of Sha and maintain a Tetrahedron.  As we already planned.

Heaven can wait...

So only the Tetrahedron in my life.  The strongest structure.  Forget about the baby.  You are my baby.  I don't think I want to go through parenthood once again.

Let's enjoy life where we are and once in a while, we travel as a Tetrahedron.

How does that sound?  Are you OK with that?

Let me ask Ratu Ina...

SJ 4964

Postscript:  She is not responding.  It could be that she doesn't want to meddle with our relationship or Kristina and Mira are real.  Gosh... Now I am stuck.  OK then, I set the condition.  Provided Kristina and Mira are not real.