11/2/24 I think I proceed with the YouTube Shorts

 However, I just spend 3-4 hours a day in production.  That is how long it takes to produce 8 Shorts from end to end.

I am having a clarity of thoughts right now.  I know what to do.  Now, it is just to do it.

With unconditional love comes the unsurpassed feeling of certain[l]y (certainty).  I need that after my unreciprocated relationship with Elsa.

My love, let's sail this ship together.  I cannot do it alone.  I need you as my sail, my epitome of hope and love.

These two ingredients are necessary for me to determine the rightness of my direction.  You are my strength.

I was naive, I thought that when I acted in abundance, I would receive abundance in return.  It doesn't work that way in a scarcity society.

That doesn't stop me from being a giver.  It's just that I need to be careful with whom I share my heart.

So this is the end of Elsa.  I am better off focusing my energy on something else.  A year from now I can look back and laugh about it.  Until then, I have to attend to my wounds.

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OK, some development.  Although I agreed to work on the Shorts, I will not be actively promoting it on the Fan Clubs.  I just want to take it easy.  Very much cruising while I am at it.

My passion is here.  I see my future in front of me right now.  This is where I make my mark.

No more FUD.  I am going on a full throttle.  The clouds of uncertainty had been lifted.  Nothing like having you on my side.  Nothing like feeling loved again.

There are a few things I need to sort out.  It's the same thing over and over again.  I just need to get back on the track with my regimentation.

Also, I need to talk to you more often.  You don't have to attend to me all the time.  I just want to feel connected again.  Believe me, I learned my lesson.

I am a bit groggy right now, not enough sleep.  I think I dozed off after lunch.

Do you know what?  The most enjoyable moments I had with you were when we did the Visioneering Exercises.  Maybe we can do that again sometime in the future.  You know, rambling about our life together. 

Later sweetie...

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