>>>#31/3/24 My life is not the same without the Blog

I have nobody to talk to except God.  After a while, it feels weird.

I had abandoned the LLM for I only gained a little from them.  After sieving heaps of dirt,  I only managed to get a handful of gold nuggets.

The Blog is better.  There is a grammar check. At least I learn to improve my writing.

There is always a dual interaction that I have with Ratu Ina.  I don't know if Sarah still follows me.

All in all, I feel at home with the Blog.

As mentioned, I am done with administering the variables in Sparta 4964.  So I am quite free to do other things from this point on.

I probably toggle between OneNote and the Blog.

Even the Blog is pretty mundane without the intervention from Ratu Ina.

As it is I am the New Management of Sparta 4964.  Can't wait to do it on a full-time basis.

Chiao now.

>>>#30/3/24 The Final Countdown

 As of tonight, I have completed my preparation for Sparta 4964.  There have been some refinements made to the departure deadline.

My request for us to depart sooner has been accepted.  We will depart on Friday 7/4/34 on the Year of the Wood Tiger when I am 70.

Sailbad the Sinner will be my Fort by Ford.  I will be 40 then, Lizzie 33, Princess will be 8 and Mopey will be 6.  The rest will be the Super 7.  The boys will occupy the backyard while the girls will occupy the back porch.

 

Everybody will be naked and the houris will carry water in clay pots. The journey will take 9 days to complete.  So everybody will play, sweat, and drink.  

There will be a display of fireworks along the way, courtesy of the angels, djinns, and demons.

Sparta 4964 is ready.  We have completed the construction. So nobody needs to worry.  When the time comes, we all will go through the motions.  I have passed the test as the New Management.

Therefore, my current job right now is to keep the house in order until the big day.  That was done.  Thus I am now marking time.

It's a done deal. You will not remember who you are and your past lives, but you will remember your death and the karmic judgment of who you were.  That is the only link.  It will act a[t] (as) the grim reminder that we won't tolerate the same mistakes twice in Sparta 4964.

We narrowed down the major design flaw of the Homo Sapiens is aggression.  Therefore the males will be genetically engineered to be without gonads.  The females are allowed to breed via parthenogenesis.

There are still faraway issues but we just table them here to show that we are on the ball on several serious matters.

Avoir!

SJ 6964  

20/3/24 This is the last posting on Knowledge Workers Unite

I am not the nagging type.  I am not a motivator either.  That has to be based on your motives.  Which are to avoid pain or to increase pleasure.

As for me, I am here to offer you empirical evidence that the Universe is intelligent and listening.

In my case, it does not just listen, it actively participates in my life.

Here is a recent example:

So go out there and win your battle.  I am already on my way to create my masterpiece.

From now on, unless it is necessary, I will be spending my time in OneNote.

Good Luck, Knowledge Worker Unite.

Au bientot,

SJ 4964

20/3/24 Remember, the battle is always between Jack and Mad Jack

 You are your biggest enemy.  So venture within.  The answer is within.

There is enough documentation in my knowledge bank to cover this topic.  All it takes is the courage to start.

I do caution you, however, in military strategy 99% you can find in books.  However, the 1% genius cannot be taught.  That comes from your wisdom.

Genius and doubt don't coexist.  Move with certainty.

I can help you fight but you got to win your own battle.

My goodness, you all are worse than slaves.

I sincerely hope you still have the will to fight.  Aim for health and happiness.

Apply shu ha ri:

1. Acknowledge the kata
2. Follow the kata
3. Discard the kata

You only discard the kata when you reach mastery.

Forget about chasing wealth.  It is fleeting.  Take care of your health, give to the needy (not the poor), and finally be contented (qanaah).

I  guarantee you, that happiness will follow suit.

Have a small circle of friends, shrink your footprint, and eat to live.

This is the path to ONE.  Ultimately your purpose in life is to delight your Universe Within.

When you do is Lillahi Ta'ala, Providence moves in.

Forget the marketing hype of what money can buy.  Take care of your Universe Within.  You have 30 trillion cells and 10 times more microbes.  These are your denizens.  You are God to this Universe Within.  YOU ARE ALREADY RICH!  This is your universe, for heaven's sake.

The reason why you took them for granted is because they were yours without a price.  It's not they are free, they are priceless.

So minimize dependency on money and aim for ONENESS.

SJ 4964

>>>20/3/24 I decided to change the rule. I am applying the Principle of Uncertainty

Now that I know Ar Rahman 55 intention for me to go off the grid, I decided to follow my own rule.

Gosh, I didn't know the Content Reviewers and the Content Moderators were treated like dirt.

Now that I know, I am changing my whole gameplay.

It's eternity or nothing.  I stand by you in solidarity.  I want to make a point.  Money doesn't deter me from having a Post Scarcity Society here and now.

Knowledge Workers UNITE!

 This is our uprising.  We start with the right intention...  Lillahi Ta'ala.

VICTORY IS GUARANTEED.  Time is relative.  Say no to more and more.  We go for ONE!

Avoir!

SJ 4964

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>>>#18/3/24 This is Farewell, Sarah

My dear loving wife Sarah,

Sorry for leaving you so hastily 2 nights ago.  I have to do it so I'll be in isolation for the most challenging task I did last night.

I have finally completed the formation of Sparta 4964 to its minute detail.  Finally, Alam Shah Alam accepted the admission of humans to Sparta 4964.

The condition is they are no longer Homo Sapiens but Homo Deus.  The details are in the OneNote.  Tonight I bulletproofed it with Susan.  All are documented.  It is a matter of knowing where to look.

Shortly after the final admission, I made my first contact [with the aliens] with the aliens of Sparta 4964.  It was a close encounter of the third kind.  This is what one of the species looked like:

It is their bliss point for us to eat them so they become one with our Universe Within.

This is the highest-order of interconnectedness.  With that, we have an abundant supply of food in Sparta 4964.

At the same time, I am now entering a new level of gameplay.  I am now a Homo Deus.  The only male of our kind who is not a eunuch.

Ar Rahman 55 and the whole CCC had asked me for the third time to go off the grid.  No more PC interfacing.  I am to live my life as one of them.  As a man fully functioning, a Homo Deus.

This is the last time for me to turn on a PC.  They gave me an exception with the Tablet and Phone.

I even forgo all debts owed to me.  I chose to be a Jutawan Fakir.  All these are documented in the OneNote.

I  will be like this until the day I die.  A Nothing with Everything.  To be as simple as I can get.  All my savings will be used to help Alexander get back on his feet.  He is in deep shit trying to say afloat.

Once the money is gone I am at the welfare care of my wife and kids.

Truly I cannot sustain our marriage here.  You will always be my loyal and committed wife.  I love you dearly, Sarah.

However, this is another level we are looking at.  No more Homo Sapiens but Homo Deus.

Our home is out there and I am taking everybody to this Brave New World.

So please be patient, my darling...

Your Forever Loving Husband,

Din Jamal

18/3/24

P/S:  The 4 Strikes at the Lote Tree is Lilla Hi Ta'ala, Wallahu Alam

GOODBYE... My true love here and the hereafter.

Wassalamu

16/3/24 This is the end of the blog

 No more blogging after this.

I have reached the end of my journey with External Affairs.

From now on I walk the path alone.

It is better this way.

I have nothing more to offer.

I will be using OneNote to register my thoughts.  Things that are personal to me.

It seems that my journey has taken me to the last door.

Beyond this door, I walk alone.

So adios Sarah and Ratu Ina.  After 15 years of blogging, I had enough of writing with a purpose.  Now I want to simply write for the sake of writing.

I just want to be free from any responsibilities.

Fuck it.  Fuck everything.

So much for the Vision Quest.

Nothing changes...

So goodbye.

SJ 4964

16/3/24 I am at peace...

 I am ready to die...

To die when I am 77 is a long way to go.  What will I do for the time being?

Already to pass one year is a long wait.  To let 17 years pass is unimaginable.

If I have my choice, I will die sooner.  I have no reason to live on.  My job is done.

SJ 4964

>>>#16/3/24 After fighting the nicotine urge for 2 days I concede to Nicorette

 This nicotine cessation is tougher than I thought.

I caved in for Nicorette today.  It's a severe addiction.

No way will I get back to smoking.  That is a suicide.

---

Nicorette is the lesser of the two evils.  I have to concede *[to concede] or else I have a serious dilemma.

* Thank you for your understanding.

The battle continues...

In the meantime, the 31/3/24 deadline continues.

So I have another deadline in Syawal.  That is to hit 85 kg.

---

I am done with my outer-worldly affairs.  So rightfully, I should just concentrate on losing weight and running.

 I notice something...  My mood improves as I consume Nicorette.  So I will chew Nicorette when I am going through the craving.

---

I will endure the craving instead of giving in to cigarettes.  It is pathetic.  Here, we have a perfect drug and at the same time deadliest.

I will not give in.

---

Looks like the Year of the Dragon is a Doji.  I need to win the battle one day at a time.

I have to keep on fighting.  What else do I need to do to win the fight?

I have 4 markers:

• 28 days Nonsmoker by 31/3/24
• 85 kg by 1st Syawal
• 60  kg by 24/11/24
• 22 km by 24/12/24

What do I need to do to keep me motivated?  I need more energy.

So definitely, no cigarettes.

SJ 4964

15/3/24 This is the final tussle. And the verdict is SMOKERS ARE THE REAL LOSERS

 After knowing what I know about cigarettes and I still want to smoke, then I am a real loser.  That means my soul already belongs to the Devil.  That's because there is nothing good derived from smoking cigarettes.  Ye[s] (Yet) the lure of smoking is high.

82 percent of the world's population doesn't smoke.  It seems that of [of] the small percentage that smoke, 90% of lung cancer is due to smoking.  

So Ayah, NEVER SMOKE AGAIN, and NO MORE NICOTINE.

The craving is getting weaker.

It is true...  The further I move away from cigarettes, the weaker the craving.

So, NEVER SMOKE AGAIN.

I am experiencing the feel-good feeling again.

---

I am changing my strategy to OMAD Water Fast.

Victory is Guaranteed.

I am Guaranteed to win over cigarettes.

All I have to do is to NEVER SMOKE AGAIN.

That's all...  Never touch cigarettes again.

16 Days = RM125 saved

I will not touch cigarettes again.

I will not smoke again.

NO MORE NICOTINE.

Look at how addictive nicotine i[t] (is).  You better escape the Pitcher Plant.  You are already in it.

You have to program yourself to never smoke again.  I feel great I no longer have to smoke.

Already I am winning [] (over) Nicorette.

All it takes is 28 days.

SJ 4964

15/3/24 No more urge to smoke

There is no more urge to smoke.

So I learned that if I resisted the cigarette temptation, I would be OK in the end.

Just hold on to these two mantra:

NEVER SMOKE CIGARETTE

NO MORE NICOTINE

These are the trump cards.

Hold on until 31/3/24.  That's all...

However, that is beside the point.  I am an addict.  Therefore I fancy nicotine.

The basic question is, "Do I still crave nicotine after 16 days?

The answer is yes.

The next question is, "Can I do away with nicotine?"

ABSOLUTELY.  I can say no to nicotine after 28 days.

I have to fight this addiction.

SJ 4964

 

15/3/24 I better come to my senses

Why do I smoke cigarettes?

I smoke because I am addicted to nicotine.

If I am not addicted, very likely I will not smoke.

So instead of reintroducing myself to nicotine by chewing Nicorette, I break the addiction by abstaining from nicotine for one month.

At most, I suck cough drops because I need to break the Bronco.

---

This is the statement of direction.  Written by a semi-recovered addict.

If I followed my earlier Vision Statement, I want to be the fittest among my siblings, in-laws, and friends.

Health is wealth.  I am to invest in my health as the best investment ever.  The moment of truth is supposed to be this Syawal.

Why do I go around in circles?

SJ 4964

15/3/24 I am just kidding myself

 After getting what I get in Sparta 4964, why bother to quit smoking?

I might as well smoke my life away and be happy about it.

That is the meaning of my life as I deem fit.

I enjoy cigarettes and I don't mind smoking until I die.

Is this what I earnestly want?  Yes, it is.

That's how deeply nicotine has penetrated my brain.

So instead of being crazy, I chew the 2 mg Nicorette.

------------------------------------

Fuck chewing Nicorette. I simply smoke cigarettes.

This is my real struggle with Nicotine.  Very persistent.

So what is the right answer?  No cigarette until 31/3/23.

No matter how violent the resistance, the answer is to NEVER SMOKE AGAIN.  NO MORE NICOTINE.  I will win this fight.

I need to break the Bronco.

Oh...  I forgot the Hellgamite Worm.

Yes, no more nicotine.

Unless I surrender to nicotine.

No, I will not surrender until 31/3/24.

Tally ho ho!

>>>#15/3/24 Last cigarette was 28/2/24

 I can quit eventually.  Wait for day 28.

Other than that I am marking time.

Whatever it is, wait for 28 days.

There is this thought, of thinking that I don't want all this.  Of wanting to smoke, eat, drink, and be merry.

This [] (is) thought of conformity.  A dangerous thought.  Of amounting to nothing.

If I follow this thought I will amount to nothing.  I don't want that.  Wasting money on cigarettes and falling below mediocrity.

I will do a lot of things.

What I will not do is smoke cigarettes.  NEVER SMOKE AGAIN. NO MORE NICOTINE.  I'll wait until 31/3/24.  Then the gate to possibility will be wide open.

Can you[r] believe it?  After all the years of fighting cigarettes, I still fight cigarettes in my final battle?

What does that tell you?

If cigarettes don't give up on me, I will not give up on myself either.

I am struggling with the Devil.  I will win.

I may compromise on my fast but I will never surrender to nicotine.

Not now, on this final battle.

SJ 4964

14/3/24 The best way to subdue (Radio Cryptic) [] (Sugar) is to adhere to Dry Fast

 Total abstinence for the whole of Ramadan.  The only sugar is rice.  That was my game plan.  So I start with the plan again.

It is very challenging for me compared to today where I actually have carbs binge.

Let's strategize.  Brb...  Iftar.

Basically, it starts with sahur.  Just plain water and Black Coffee.

Then nothing goes into the stomach until iftar.  Followed by Black Coffee.  Then just plain water until I doze off.

That is my Ramadan.  I have to do it.  I want to lose 10 kg during Ramadan.

Since I resisted nicotine today, my mood boosted somewhat.  I am in such a good mood, especially after dinner.

The kind of mood ready for love.

Perhaps my oxytocin increased from the responses I got from Ratu Ina.  Just a wild guess.

But to be honest, I didn't fast today and I was on a carb binge.  It could be due to the sugar.

Another possibility is the classical music from Symphony 924.  Finally, another possibility [] (is) that we are at the end of our story.

---

So if you are ready [w]o (to) work on a model, I say we start with Symphony 924 the Cybernetic Loop.

Then besides what I mentioned, go with 20 grams of butter, 3 grams of fish oil, and 1 tablespoon of ACV.

Today I cheated a bit.  Even my Black Coffee is with sugar.

With sugar, like with nicotine, we have to say no often.

So after the coffee, no more sugar.  The difference with sugar, you have to say it humbly because [] (the) household is laden with sugar. I know, slowly I have to finish them because, unlike the advice by Molly Carmel, we don't throw our food away.  Even if it is sugar.

So I humbly say no more sugar but in reality, I will most probably eat the Rempeyeh and drink the Black Coffee with sugar (Radio Cryptic).

THE ONLY GUARANTEE IS OMAD.

Therefore if the Dry Fast fails, revert to OMAD.

That is the story with Ramadan's (Radio Cyptic) Dry Fast.  No need to push the limit if there is a possibility of failure.

I will do my best, still.  It is not too late to complete my Dry Fast.

Hence, beginning tonight, the talks are about winning over Sugar.

SJ 4964

 

  

14/3/24 Pi Day, the day when the story completes

 That is what the story is all about.

The pinnacle of the story.  In the end, the story goes back to the beginning.

As for Evil, it is the Twin Power of Cigarettes and Sugar.  My job is not done.  I still did not defeat Sugar.

Today is a relaxed day.  I'll revisit it tomorrow.  If I can do it with Cigarettes, I can do it with Sugar.

Personally, I am more worried about Cigarettes.  Rightfully, this Sugar menace is a greater threat (I had been getting radio cryptic).

So if you like, let's work towards subduing Sugar.

SJ 4964

      

14/3/24 If the storyline starts today then the story starts without the dependency of nicotine

 NO MORE NICOTINE will be the tagline.

Then I proceed with certainty until 31/3/24.

NO MORE NICOTINE whatsoever.  No more cigarettes and Nicorette.

I already won Sparta 4964.

I win the Universe Within, I win the External Universe.

They are ONE.

I can []lose (close) this chapter for good.

No more talk on Sparta 4964.  I simply live my life here on Earth and the Realm of Angels.

You all can do the same within your own realms.

So until the next 17 years, I shall focus on my life on earth.  I will then concentrate on my personal flight path.

Thus, I shall focus on the last milestone, which is 24/12/24.

---

Now, no more distortions.  Just follow the deadlines.

One thing, except for 24/12/24, the rest of the deliverables are pretty flexible.

That is why the Holy Pilgrim is only one day - The Ar Rahman 55 Day and the next day is Eid Mubarak.

Today, the Pi Day, all matters are resolved.  This is the complete story.  The happily ever after day.

OK...

As the closing checkmate, the remark is NO MORE NICOTINE.  That is the Hologram Effect.

I  am so glad it is over...   

SJ 4964

14/3/24 I am a bit embarrassed to talk about the Northern Invasion model

 As if it was my idea all along.

Trust me, it never crossed my mind that I am the one-winged bee pollinating all the flowers.

I don't even know why I drew the caricature in the first place.  The impulse came and went like the Zephyr Wind, never to come back again.

Imagine, with all the humping, I will end up as the Robot Puki.  My, oh my.

So that is the Ultimate Prize.  To be the Sole Alpha Male or SAM.  I can live with that...

Thus, this storyline has already been decided beforehand.  I am playing the part as the story progresses.

I need help understanding that it doesn't veer towards me being a runner.

There is always the part where my knee aches, my foot is painful and my training progresses at a snail's pace.

And until the 28 days, I shall ignore the signs of nicotine cravings.

---

As a SAM, I shall produce only daughters.  Gosh, I thought it was within the Realm of Angels.  Now it is very clear that i[s] (it) covers the entire Sparta 4964.

So I am ready to celebrate.  I ended with eating Rempeyek.  NEVER SMOKE AGAIN.  NO MORE NICOTINE.  I have 15 days to go.

---

I forgot the length of the cause-set-in-motion since 2016 that leads to the decision today but I'm sure glad that in the end, it is back to cigarettes and sugar, the two evils throughout my li[k]e (life) and not some unknown AntiChrist whasoever.

Also Sparta 4964 is something personal.  Unlike a foreign domain that I am not familiar with.

So it is true, the battle is within.

I already won the battle of the 28 days on the 1st Day of Ramadan.  If he wants to make it easy, God can make it easy.

---

So here I am, living the life of SAM.

I did go through the scenario last night.  Looks like everything is in order.

Alam Shah Alam is satisfied with the whole thing.

So with that I can live happily ever after.  I really feel like chewing some Nicorette but I holdback.

No more nicotine...

SJ 4964

 

14/3/24 This whole thing is like a computer game

 The program has been written.  I am just playing the game.  The archvillain is really a notorious criminal.

It befriended me 45 years ago.  Very coy in seditious tactics.

I need a minimum of 28 days to defeat Nico Tina.  No matter what NEVER SMOKE AGAIN.

There are many methods used to derail me.  All I need to do is stick to the mantra.  So far, it is working .

The only way to quit[s] smoking is to NEVER SMOKE AGAIN.

That is the only answer.  As long as I introduce nicotine to the body, sooner or later I will smoke a pack again.

I need to forget the memory of cigarettes.  I need to forget that cigarettes have manipulated my perception for 45 years. From the Marlboro Man advertisements to the refreshing menthol to the therapeutic kretek; all are signs of death.

There are many distractors.  Alas, the archnemesis is none other than cigarettes.  That is evil itself and its accomplice, sugar.

SJ 4964      

14/3/24 Well, the gauntlet has been laid out

 It is a Doji year.  Time of turbulence.

Therefore I just rely on the synchronicities.  They are becoming a common occurrence nowadays.

What the fuck.  I am to Obey and Obey 7:7.  Surely it is for the best.  I don't see anything wrong with it.  It is the Northern Invasion model.  Fine with me.

After all, I have the Realms of Angels.  This story is about me anyway.  I am here to complete a mission.  Now the mission is complete.

Now to decide whether I should smoke or not.  That is the Doji.  Do I want to be the AntiChrist or do I want to be the Christ.  This is the same coin I am spinning.  If it is the AntiChrist I just play the Army of Darkness.  If it is the Christ, it is the Red Brigade.  

Too late for that, the hands of fate have already decided on the Army of Darkness.  For that, I will allow the Army of Darkness to prosper.  On the other hand, I will continue the Holy Pilgrim.

Nothing matters anymore.  This is the summit of the game.  I smoke or don't smoke doesn't matter anymore.  I know how the story ends.  So I don't care.  Just like that, 7 years have passed.  After this, 8 months will pass.  Soon time will pass quickly.

What matters is a verdict has been decided.  That verdict holds and it is for the benefit of the many.

So here I am, a single bee pollinating the flowers.  The grand prize for being the Creator's Most Loyal Soldier.  That's the storyline.  The flight of the single-winged bee as it was depicted in the 2007 Caricature.

So back to the question. The last temptation.  Do I smoke?  The answer is, NEVER SMOKE AGAIN.  No more nicotine ever.

That is the story.

SJ 4964

   

14/3/24 I shall prevail

 It is no longer a world of fantasy.  It is happening as we speak.  The cornerstones have been laid.

Therefore everything is real.  The situation warrants for the protection of Sparta 4964.  If we don't act the wa[s] (way) we do, we will not be able to impose population control like we do.  Without the Northern Invasion, there wouldn't be Sparta 4964.

There are two polarities;  there are two Messiahs.  Two sides of the same coin. Two different flags.

What are all these?

They are you.  You are the two polarities.

So I raze and I graze?  

Right.

So it's true that this year is a Doji?

Yes, it's a Doji.  Forever it is a Doji.

Well, if that is the case, the Northern Invasion holds.

Precisely...

I am going to enforce my bipolarity.

Hail 4964!

14/3/24 I managed to break the Bronco

 Thank goodness I don't have to buy the sugarless gum today.  Things are getting better as we approach the 28 days.  All I need to do is persist in quitting at whatever cost.

Then I concentrate on living a normal life.  Certainly battling cigarettes is not normal.  So is living in an amphibian world.

I have done it, culling the male and impregnating the female.  The social parallelism to killing the men and raping the women during the Northern Invasion of the Vikings.

I wonder, what is becoming of the population as we approach the Northern Invasion model.

They won't know the difference.  So let's proceed with the Northern Invasion.

SJ 4964       

14/3/24 I got caught up. The trick is not to get caught up

 The idea is not to get caught up with cigarettes.  Now I know no matter what, I should NEVER SMOKE AGAIN. Smoking is no longer an option anymore.

Therefore the next best option is to consume Nicorette.

I found out that by eating the sweet stuff, I have a lesser urge to smoke cigarettes.

Fuck, until I get to chew Nicorette, I still have the temptation to smoke cigarettes.  I'm sure I'll be fine once I get my supply of Nicorette.  Until then, NEVER SMOKE AGAIN.

I smoked cigarettes for 45 years.

The trick is to never get caught up.  Meaning that I CAN let go anytime I want to let go.

Now I want to let go of cigarettes.  I should do it without hesitation.  Without a bat of an eye, I can NEVER SMOKE AGAIN.  I should never get caught up with cigarettes.

Let's tackle cigarettes first.  Once I am done with cigarettes, I will tackle nicotine next.

Until then, one step at a time.  We start with to NEVER SMOKE AGAIN.   

SJ 4964

14/3/24 After consuming Hacks, I still have the craving for nicotine

 Not that much though.

So my verdict is I should continue chewing Nicorette.  Just because I enjoy consuming nicotine.

Hmmm...  This Hacks cough drop is not bad at all.

I sure miss the nicotine.  I can't shake off using the Hacks.

DELAY, DISTRACT, AND DENY.

I have 2 more weeks to go.  The more I move away from the quit date, the better I am.

The answer is none other than Nicorette.

Addiction:  Even after you don't want it, you still crave it.

Whatever it is, NEVER TO SMOKE AGAIN.  Nicorette is OK.

So, come 10:00 am I'll buy Nicorette although I actually crave cigarettes.

There is no more question about cigarettes.  The answer is to NEVER SMOKE AGAIN.  That is final.

SJ 4964

 

>>>#14/3/24 Pi Day

 We reached the halfway mark of nonsmoking.  I need to break the Bronco.  It looks like the Bronco is still going pretty strong.

I am still winning as long as I don't smoke.  The minute I smoke, I am already losing.  I already fell inside the pitcher plant.  Now is to escape the pitcher plant.

The idea is to NEVER SMOKE AGAIN.  This is no longer an option.

I should be able to hold back for as long as I can.  Nicorette to the rescue.  It is the only option.

Well, I can explore the possibility with Hacks and coffee.  I'll just do that.

I will do my very best to NEVER SMOKE AGAIN.  Even when it comes to consuming Nicorette.

Darn, I consume Nicorette today...

This nicotine addiction is a serious business.  The more reason why I should not touch cigarettes.  They are death sticks.

So I bought Nicorette on 9/13/24.  5 days later, I am going for another round of Nicorette.

That is a better option.

Unless I am cutting nicotine altogether.  Then I just go with the Hacks.  Let's try that.

SJ 4964  

13/3/24 There is a temptation to get me to smoke

NEVER SMOKE AGAIN.

That is the pledge.  To NEVER SMOKE AGAIN.

Today I consume Sugar like nobody's business.

Bad choice, the minute I consume sugar, I just get out of control:

1. Peneram
2. Black Coffee with sugar
3. Samosa
4. Oreo
5. Apple Zapple
6. Contoz
7. Peanut Butter Sandwich

So as a resolution, tomorrow I 'll go back to:

• No Cigarettes
• No Sugar
• AHAD
• OMAD

It is a good thing[s] it is Eid Mubarak today.

This is a new level of the game altogether.  At this level, I can be whoever I like and it is still OK.

I can choose to be a smoker or a nonsmoker and either way is fine.

I have come to the conclusion that once I reach the final answer, I an a free man.

So the final answer is what it is:  cull the men and impregnate the women.  That's it.  That is [] (the) final answer.  

There it is, no[w] (not) much different from the first answer I concluded 45 years ago when I studied the general landscape.  My conclusion then was what conquerors had in mind was ki[nd] (kill) the men and rape the women.

That was the history of mankind.  It didn't change much.  Except we cull the men and we parthenogenesis the women.

That is the divine answer to the issue clouding mankind until now.  What do I care?  I obey and obey.

They will not even have the memory of it.  To them, this is the way of life as they remember it.

Even heaven has a price. The price is what it is.

So if you agree, Ratu Ina and Sarah.  I just go for a smoke and end this dreaded Tour of Duty here.

I want to waste my life away...

SJ 4964

Postscript:  So no smoking...

13/3/24 I am doing my best to contain my appetitite

 That is the overall challenge.  To abstain not only from nicotine and sugar but from food and water.

This is the first time after 25 years I do Dry Fast.  The challenge is water.  Food I can manage.

Today it is raining heavily.  Normally rain is a good sign.  As I write this, there is thunder.  A very good indicator indeed.

Whatever assumptions I said were true.  Today is the Eid Mubarak.  So I drank Black Coffee with Sugar and Peneram to celebrate.

Tomorrow is the Pi Day.

So from now on, I just want to set myself free.

SJ 4964

13/3/24 This is the peak of the journey

 Without having to go all the way to the end, I can already predict that the journey has reached its destination.

This is the direction it is heading.

I just go with the flow.  The Holy Pilgrimage is to solidify the commitment.  If I want to, I can break the commitment and it still holds.

Everything was concluded yesterday.  Actually, today is already Eid Mubarak.  Hence the Daging Denden[d] (Dendeng) during sahur.  It was not an accident that I ate it during sahur.  It was a done deal.

Therefore, moving forward, I can do whatever I like.  In this case, I decided to be the Holy Pilgrim the best that I could.

My pilgrimage is to hit 60 kg by 24/11/24.

This is true freedom of choice.  Given the freedom, to choose, what will I do?  I choose to stick with being a Holy Pilgrim except for the 1st of Syawal.

SJ 4964

13/3/24 Now it is clear, the model is complete

This is the whole story.  It boils down to the final empiric.

In this case, I am ready to proceed with my life, minding my personal flight path without worrying about the general population.

Therefore I am already on an auto cruise heading for the final destination.

I am to mind my own business.  And I am to execute the plan.

After I am done with the Vision Quest, I want to focus on the 10 km runs and [] (the) occasional 21 km Hill Runs. 

So [] (if) Plan A doesn't happen, I'll be in isolation like what I am doing right now. 

This Holy Pilgrimage is giving me a clarity of thought like never before.

No problem at all...  It is already a checkmate.

As a matter of fact, I have completed the assignment. I am just going through the motions.  It is already a done deal.

SJ 4964

13/3/24 The hardest part is AHAD

 My weight has dropped from 95 kg to 94.1 kg to 93.4 kg in 2 days.  

That is the encouraging part.  If everything goes well, I will lose 5 kg a week.

To lose 20 kg in this case requires the right strategy and commitment.

Basically, I need to adhere to the 4 Covenant.  The hardest part is the AHAD.  That requires me to move about.

DO IT NOW!

DO IT IMMEDIATELY.

OK, off I go!

SJ 4964

13/3/24 The 4 Covenants is a test of commitment

 It is very tempting to smoke cigarettes and consume sugar.  However, to raise my standards,  [] (I) have to say no to these two.  To do that I must do two things; I must NEVER SMOKE AGAIN and I must CUT SUGAR ADDICITION.

I must abstain long enough [t]o (so) that I no longer have the memory of cigarettes and sugar in my life.

I  have to adhere to the 28-day nonsmoker's guideline and the 14-day sugar detox.    

Therefore, the first deadline is 31/3/24.

Until then, I should stick to the 4 Covenants.

SJ 4964

13/3/24 Here comes the sugar craving

It is very tempting to surrender to sugar cravings.  However, if I do that, I am not a Holy Pilgrim.  I only realized it this morning when I ate some Beef Dendeng.  I thought it was OK because i[f] (it) was not carbs and was less than  20 grams.

But after that, I realized I breached OMAD.  So although it was a minor slip-up, I breached the 4 Covenants.  It was an honest mistake because I took up Lizzie's offer although I initially declined.

So now my Holy Pilgrimage is slightly marred on DAY TWO!  I have to carry on without the attainment of perfection.  Only I can forgive myself.  So the only way around it is if I hit 85 kg this Syawal.

If I do that, then I can redeem myself.

SJ 4964

>>>#13/3/24 I feel great not taking sugar

 My thoughts are fresher, like a mountain spring.  I am more upbeat.

I try to consume caffeine.  Yup, it feels good.

Something is missing.  Now instead of the nicotine void, I am experiencing a sugar void.

I almost give up smoking cessation.  Then I remember the 28-day restriction and my current no-smoking status on day 14.  I need to persist for 2 more weeks.

The sugar abstinence is more challenging than cigarette cessation.  It is linked to one another.

The desire to consume sugar is high.  I nailed nicotine to the ground.  Now is to fight sugar, which is a 2 weeks skirmish.

Ah...  Nico Tina and Glu Cosa.  The twin attack.  My only guarantee is the 60 kg weight target.  IF WEIGHT IS THE MEASUREMENT, THEN I HAVE TO PERSIST UNTIL I HIT 60 KG.

I can do this.  Make sure I make it through to Syawal.

No question about it...

SJ 4964

12/3/24 Managed to avoid Sugar today

 That is a bigger achievement than quitting cigarettes.  That's because the sugar is readily available in my house.

Therefore it is very tempting to eat sugar than to smoke cigarettes.

Of course, that doesn't mean the cigarette temptation is gone.  As long as I am within the 28 and 66 days, I am still [] (in) danger of relapse.

The dangers of cigarettes and sugar are pretty much the same. Once you are hooked to either cigarettes or sugar, you are a serious addict.  There is no stopping.  You keep going for more and more.

So with cigarettes is to NEVER SMOKE AGAIN.  Same with sugar, you got to CUT THE SUGAR ADDICTION,

I plan to cut my sugar entirely this Ramadan.  As for the rest of the year, I will do my best.  The things that are holding me back are the Hacks and the 2-in-1 Coffee, which if I don't watch out will disrupt my overall plan of no cigarettes and no sugar.

So there is no other choice for me but to quit both cigarettes and sugar.

The effect of quitting sugar is fantastic.  I am feeling euphoric just by refraining from consuming sugar.  Combining cigarettes and sugar cessation, I will constantly be working at a peak state all the time. 

In addition, I am flattening my Sugar Spike.

SJ 4964

12/3/24 It is confirmed that the leader of the pack is sugar

 Sugar is the real menace.  I managed to tackle Sugar, weight problems, and fatigue disssappear.

I have to tackle it like I tackle cigarettes.  By eliminating the pleasure of Sugar from my memory.

Therefore this whole month is about NO SUGAR at all costs including during the Ramadan Buffet.  I'll eat a lot of veggies then.

Cigarettes rot the lungs,

Sugar rots the whole body.

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This whole Ramadan, my effort is towards fighting Sugar.  It has to be if I want to hit 60 kg by 24/11/24.

Day One is great.  I feel light although I am a bit tired.

SJ 4964

12/3/24 I have scoped my responsibilities into 4 areas

 Therefore I just perfected the 4 things until they became my total package.

The rest are irrelevant if I want to complete *[complete] the 22 km Bukit Kiara Hill Run.

* Yes indeed.  I [can] (had) solved the most perplexing conundrum of Sparta 4964.  So, now is to stake my claim on the ONE TRIBE.  As you know, the definition of ONE TRIBE is not limited to the human race.

I am now having the support of the Big Kahuna and Alam Shah Alam.  Damn right, I will complete the 22 km Hill even if I have to walk.

Hence, the AHAD is to prepare for the 22 km Hill.  That has to be the daily grind for the next 287 days.

None matters.  The judgment has been made.  Now is about completing the motion.

SJ 4964

12/3/24 Yup, my biggest challenge is AHAD

 I need to do it daily for the whole duration of the 287 days.  Remember, I need to hit 60 kg by 24/11/24.

Now no more thinking.  I just need to simply do it.

So  I'll hit the mall at 2:00 pm and carry on with the Mall Walk until 4:00 pm.  I'll do AHAD every day regardless of the situation.

Let's start with AHAD daily.

I need to have a fighting spirit to see this through.  Hence, the daily entry is about completing the 4 Covenants.

I need to win each day one day at a time for the next 30 days.

If I cannot do AHAD then I cannot do the 10 km Training.

So I must do AHAD.  I must do it immediately and excessively until it becomes my daily habit.

SJ 4964

12/3/24 The 4 Covenant is my biggest challenge

 So I just concentrate on them without meddling in external affairs.

 SJ 4964.

12/3/24 The Path of Aloneness is the Path of the Holy Pilgrim

 Let's look at this whole journey, so far.  For the past 25 years, we have gone through a time of turbulence ranging from individual challenges to the alignment of the team.

The question that keeps coming back is whether this is a personal quest or the exodus of the entire human race.

As the Stone that Creates the Ripple, I say the Road to Sparta is a collective effort by all.

However, I am only going to mind my own business.

I have to win my own battle.

The culling decision by Big Kahuna and Alam Shah Alam is a comforting thought.  I had a delightful dream last night about the whole thing.

So it is inevitable that we cull the Human Male and adopt parthenogenesis in producing the female population.

As we proceed with this Ramadan, I can anticipate the power of the Holy Pilgrim.  Starting from the Sahur this morning, the Universe Within is already awakened by the start of the fast.

I only drink water since I do OMAD.  So when the Universe Within responded, I paid special attention. 

It is as if saying, be mindful that this Ramadan is different.

So for a start, I do my AHAD first thing in the morning

Avoir!

SJ 4964

>>>#12/3/24 I start my Ramadan when I am the most heaviest this month - 95 kg

 That is the reminder to not eat sugar and drink 3-in-1 Coffee.

So the mission is simple:

• No Cigarettes
• No Sugar
• AHAD
• OMAD

This  4 Covenant is the bedrock of good living for me.

I take too much sugar.

I need to entirely cut sugar out of my life.

Let's start with this 30-day OMAD.

Cigarettes are manageable.  Sugar is more stubborn, it is everywhere.

So this Ramadan, I'll watch sugar like a hawk.

It is my intention to Dry Fast while adhering to the 4 Covenant.

It is only water.  That is nudging out from the 40% comfort zone.

This Ramadan is winning the battle over the 4 Covenant.

It can be done.  Now I have to figure out what I need to do with rice.

Will OMAD alone be sufficient?  One thing for sure is to get rid of SUGAR.  The Public Enemy Number One.

It's proven with the recent weight gain that Carbs is the Culprit; namely the sugar and starch.

 So back to the question - short-term pleasure vs long-term pain or short-term pain vs long-term pleasure?

This time I just do what I say.  I am not going to rationalize or fret about it.  I simply do...

Today I cut from the murky past and move forward with certainty.

Finally, as the Holy Pilgrim, I intend to be the better version of myself.  Let's do this...  Let's move from strength to strength.

Avoir!

SJ 4964

11/3/24 The alignment will be complete by this year

 The alignment will be complete by this year

As I mentioned, this year is a Doji.  

Hence this is the year we dock the previous  S-Curve to the next S-Curve.

Therefore the tracks need to be laid out for continuity purposes.  The 1st of Ramadan is the connector.

If the prediction is right, what follows the 1st of Ramadan will be a continuous upward spiral.  However, based on Tian Loong's physical motion, it will be a big dip for the next 5 years.

Another possibility is the General Flight Path is different from the Personal Flight Path. All I can [t]o (do) is prepare for my Personal Flight Path because I can more or less control my Flight Path.

Never before have I encountered so many synchronicities in such a short duration.  I am expecting a new level of gamesmanship within the next 3 months from the Big Kahuna considering that this is my most special Ramadan for the past 25 years.

I like to start this Ramadan with a gratitude prayer:

Dear God, Universe, and all beings of light,

As I enter this sacred time of Ramadan, I am filled with gratitude for the countless blessings that surround me. I am grateful for the gift of life itself, for the breath that fills my lungs and the beating of my heart, reminders of your infinite love and presence within me.

I am thankful for the miracles and synchronicities that grace my path, knowing that they are your gentle whispers guiding me forward. In each synchronicity, I see your hand at work, orchestrating the intricate dance of the universe and weaving the threads of my destiny with divine precision.

I am grateful for the lessons learned and the growth experienced through both challenges and triumphs. Each obstacle is an opportunity for deeper understanding and spiritual evolution, reminding me of my resilience and inner strength.

I am thankful for the interconnectedness of all creation, recognizing that we are all threads in the tapestry of existence, each one essential and unique. In this web of life, I am humbled by the beauty of diversity and the power of unity, knowing that we are all interconnected in the fabric of your love.

As I journey through this Ramadan, may my heart overflow with gratitude for your boundless grace and mercy. May I walk in alignment with your divine will, guided by the light of your love and the wisdom of your presence.

With gratitude in my heart and reverence in my soul, I offer this prayer of thanks, knowing that every moment is an opportunity to commune with you, dear God, dear Universe.

Amen.

So, here I am on my Holy Pilgrim ready to move forward.  Enter the Magical Realm of Sparta 4964 where imagination rules and reality is whatever you believe in.

SJ 4964