7/2/24 What have we discovered for the past 8 years?

 I really don't know what to make out of it.  It is as if we are stuck in the same spot.  Nothing changes...

So what does it mean?  Is everything futile?

Oh well, I just think about my mission at hand.  I need to seal the deal.  Ultimately, it is the meaning that I give to my personal event that counts.

Other than that, there is no significance to what I do.  The only markers that matter eventually are my health and happiness.

That is why I have to look back on these two for my life's meaning.

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I look at the "things" I accumulated in my life. They are simply things.  Just like the clothes that I bought.  Really a waste of money.  From now on let's not waste money.

I intend to save RM2k this year.  Let's not spend money unnecessarily.

I have nothing more to purchase. Let's keep it that way.

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Let's conclude that life itself has no purpose.  It means that the progress of the human civilization has no meaning whatsoever.  It is just one big lesson that humans are nothing more tha[t] (than) a destructive organism that needs to be contained.

The whole process is to prove a point; that in the end, humans are harmful and thus need to be contained.  There is no free will at play here.  All the while, we are dealing with predestination.

What is the point then?  F[or] (From) my perspective, my takeaway point is to never repeat the same mistake twice.  This is the lesson for me.  I was about to commit a very costly mistake.  The temptation is there.  However, as a servomechanist, I have to Obey and Obey 7:7.

The whole thing is about a lesson in obedience.  So I'm not going to make the same mistake twice.

It is very tempting to say I have free will and thus I decide on my destiny.  Alas, that is not the case.  We are here to obey.  I did it for the past 24 years.  I simply obeyed to the point I was on the verge of losing my sanity.  Nevertheless, I keep on obeying.  

This is the last test.  Will I continue to obey or do I follow the illusion of free will?  Fortunately, I came to my senses.  So the decision is to continue serving as a servomechanism.  

By doing so, [] (I) set the standard and the reason for the decision to happen as it is.

Avoir!
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