And so the Raya is over. I need to align back to my purpose. Back to *[no] achieving the 2024 vision.
* Perhaps not? I don't really know.
Whatever it means, I will still persist. This is the Wood Dragon Year.
All these are a play of the mind. The body has to follow.
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SJ 4964
Back to ground zero. I cannot abandon all the working models. I just carry them around like a multitool. So I should continue blogging.
As a whole, all went well this Aidil Fitr. The whole siblings were there. This is the best Raya ever for everybody, especially for my Mama.
Ramadan is over. Begin operation Athlete4Life.
So tonight no dinner.
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SJ 4964
Here is the style of writing. I will write about Personal Excellence from my individual perspective. Namely from Mens Sana in Corpore Sano's point of view.
The idea is to start from zero and move North from there. So this is not one of those prim and proper stories about Personal Excellence. This is a story about Sisyphus and Icarus. Every day going through the grind so that one day I can break the barrier to touch the sun.
This is the theme that I will go for from this point on. Every day is about going through the grind so that I can fly towards the sun.
So today is the day I SNAP VANISH for good from Social Media.
I need to mentally prepare for my solo voyage.
That means I retreat back to OneNote.
Any objection?
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SJ 4964
Let's deal with the situation as it is. For one, as a Blind Apek, I simply bulldoze my way around.
That's what I have been doing all the while.
What I am offering now is for us to co-create as collaborators.
We will proceed if you are agreeable.
Then you come in as coauthors instead of mere providers of cipher texts. You can use multiple mediums, and I can pick them up.
That is if you agree.
Should you choose to decline, then I just go on bulldozing myself as I please.
It will become an indulgence.
I already *[] (have) some thoughts on future postings. It will be about my Pursuit of Personal Excellence. A topic that I carry very early in life. The main theme will be along this line. I want to break away from society.
* So if you want to, this is my bearing - Personal Excellence.
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SJ 4964
I can only speak for myself.
Perhaps at most, I can speak for my family.
Most people will probably say their problem in life is money. I would say that you will have that problem if you have endless things to buy.
If you have no issue buying, then you don't have a money issue.
Same thing with me. I love eating. If only I don't eat sugar, then I don't have issues getting fat.
So it is not about loving to eat but eating right.
As of now, I don't have a problem with money. My problems are cigarettes and sugar.
Only two problems. So I am going to systematically tackle these two issues. The easiest of the two is cigarettes.
If I follow the Never to Smoke Again to the hilt, I should be OK.
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Now the sugar issue is all carbs are sugar. Should I cut all sugar except for fruits and veggies?
If *th[e] (that) is the case, I am back to my banana and butter diet.
* You are serious, aren't you?
In the meantime, I simply do OMAD.
Say, as a side note, can the wailing and howling be meaningful?
So that is the game plan with sugar.
Back to basic.
On the hunger issue, I just take in more butter.
Everything was OK except when I forgo OMAD. That is my last bastion.
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SJ 4964
Since I am a Blind Apek, I am not going to meddle with your affairs.
I had laid out my roadmap and I had assessed the overall situation. My assessment is everything is exactly as it is supposed to be.
Hence, I made the right decision to stay clear from the External Affairs.
The main appeal here is Sparta 4964. We sorted that out. Now for us to go for another 10 years of gestation period.
I like this idea very much. That means that 10 years is a Permanent Vacation for me.
To do that, I have to win over cigarettes and sugar by 6/6/24.
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How amazing it is. The Golden Reign of the Wood Dragon is Forever Yin and Yang Forever with 6/6/24 being the Doji. I had been on this path for 25 years, and yet I never could but feel amazed by the synchronicity and alignments of the numbers.
(Synchronicity just occurred - celebrate the day)
We may forgive but we may not accept back.
I am in this category.
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SJ 4964
The Space Invaders were the proof.
Much much earlier on it was the cat eyes sketches on the PC.
Now, it is the synchronicities.
All these are technology-based. So either they are time travelers or they are pretty smart people.
It will be easier to talk about time travelers than pretty smart people. That's because time-traveling doesn't require meticulous organization (synchronicity just occurred - dragon).
OK good. So let's talk to the time travelers. I say like me you are from the present. However, you can toggle between the past, present, and future.
If that is the case, please take note of my Knowledge Bank since 1999 and follow what works. What doesn't work, just discard for others to consider. Much like going to a buffet.
I still wish to remain small. So if my family and I can be among the first recipients of Carte Blanche, that's all I need. You don't have to pay me for my IP Sales.
Money bugs me. With more money I ended up planning for other people to benefit from the money. I on the other hand will still remain small.
Not to mention the swindlings, extortions, and potential kidnappings.
I don't see I need more [] (than) what I have now.
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There is a lot at stake with my IP. I am not going to finish all. Like I said look back at my IP and evaluate my business model. If it can be rolled out worldwide, let me and my family be the first recipients.
Building and transportation we rent. Everything else is pay-per-use.
That's all it takes. No ownership...
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SJ 4964
When was the turning point?
It was when I started picking up cigarettes again. That was when everything came tumbling down.
So now, back to cutting carbs. Very dangerous indeed. In 3 months I gain 8 kg.
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Here is the right mindset: Focus on the Universe Within. You win the Universe Within, you win the External Universe.
Fuck, all the plans are fucked. ONE TRIBE, Global Telepathy, Empires of the Minds, World of Hybrids. All are fucked.
So back to Personal Flight Path.
Well since that didn't work out, I might as well do my own thing. One thing is for sure, this is The Golden Reign of the Wood Dragon and I am still battling my sworn enemies cigarettes and sugar.
Very w[i]ll (well), I will take affirmative action by 22/4/24 to get my life in order again.
I'll win the 4 pillars, 1 pillar at a time.
That is [] (the) short-term mission.
So if the aim is to weigh 60 kg by 24/11/24 Then EXACTLY by tomorrow morning, I reinforce OMAD. At least no breakfast.
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Let's face it, my only enemies are cigarettes and sugar.
I need to deal with these two once and for all.
I have to stand firm in my actions to eradicate cigarettes and sugar.
Of all the issues in the world, to me, these are my issues. The rest are nonissues. So rather than focusing on other issues, I just concentrate on eradicating these two issues.
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SJ 4964
The more I am in isolation the better. That way I can focus on things that matter.
As long as I still have 24/12/24 on my head, I am still a servomechanism.
So I have to pursue the whole year by adhering to the milestones.
This is my most meticulous year ever. Since the beginning of the year, cigarettes have surfaced many times as a formidable contender. I managed to battle the fluctuations for 3 months. April is tilting the score. It is the month I change the tide of the event.
Now is to set the course home to 6/6/24. That is only half the journey. The Yin Journey. I still have to complete the Yang Journey.
Truly this is [] (the) Golden Reign of the Wood Dragon. I didn't make this up. It is in the alignment of the numbers.
Besides, the synchronicities were rampant.
I don't know much, but I study patterns. From patterns, we see the emergence of trends. Therefore the trend is towards a half and half. A Forever Yin and Yang Forever. So happened the Doji is on 6/6/24.
Rather tha[t] (than) assessing the Big Trends, I pay attention to the Small Signs. The ones I observe daily. These become the checkpoints for the journey ahead.
Again, I cannot represent the general population. I am accountable for Sparta 4964 and my Universe Within. I can speak on my behalf. Of what is best for my universe.
The bad news is I inherited the Homo Sapiens. The good news is, my plan for Homo Deus has been accepted.
So the soul remains, the rest we modified.
That is the price for not adhering to ONE TRIBE. Otherwise, the whole exercise is very straightforward. Looking at the hindsight, I'm glad all these happened. This is our True Colors.
Since the 9-year voyage of VIVA 2041 is not happening, I revamped the whole work with a 9-day warp-speed alternative. Now it is AVOIR 2034. This is it. No House of Two Swords, no House of Sha, and, no Kristina. This is a no-frill voyage.
With this voyage, I stand alone. I am the judge and the juror. This time if you fail Sparta 4964, it is total incineration. Not even the soul survives. It is a case of bad seed.
I am a 4964 and I am the New Management. I am already in the Driver's Seat. Taking notes, observing... If you think you can outperform me, go ahead.
As I mentioned many times before, my priority is Sparta 4964, the Brave New World. My children are secured by the Hands that Rock Proclamation.
So I am constantly on the lookout for favorable signs. Not even my closest circles made the grade. So if the rest are better off, show me an honorable man worthy of my attention.
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SJ 4964
The ultimate challenge is not nicotine by dealing with dopamine antagonists.
I must fight the urge to consume sugar.
That can only be done by starting with LCHF.
I need to sleep by 12:00 am to start waking up early.
Starting tonight, I need to focus on cigarettes and sugar cessation.
Another 12 days to the 4 Pillars and another 18 days to qualify as a nonsmoker.
So forget the stories of Sparta 4964. That is still the same.
What is changing is the Doji. 6/6/24 is the 66th Day and the day Providence moves in 2022. The Doji from Yin to Yang for this year is on 6/6/24.
Imagine, it was the day Providence moved in in 2022. I cannot find a better planner.
Therefore this is another proof that the plan has already been laid out. I just follow the flow.
This means that since Ar Rahman 55's Day on the 1st of Ramadan, my victory is guaranteed. All I need to do (synchronicity) is follow the Yellow Brick Road.
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This is a homecoming. So I focus on doing what is right.
I don't gamble. I follow the signs to the straight path.
The bottom line is I have completed my job in Sparta 4964. Now I am back to 24/12/24.
I will run 22 km Bukit Kiara Hill Run.
Let's do it. No need to blow my horn. I just do it.
Now that I have the Roadmap, I stick with the plan. This 22 km Run is just for me. It is mind over matter.
Here is [] (a) pivotal question: What if what I am doing all this while only concerns me and no one else?
Then I just do what is right for me because nobody else matters.
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SJ 4964
The signs are already pointing in the right direction. Finally, I am on the straight path.
Don't care about anything else except cigarettes and sugar cessation.
As long as I don't smoke and consume sugar, I am a success. Therefore I take it to the brim with the NO CIGARETTES AND SUGAR.
Tonight [] (is) the crucial moment for me to proceed as a smoke-free person. This is my renewal. From here I roll downhill to 28/4/24.
This is a long run. I must resist smoking until Day 66. In the meantime, I shall enjoy Japan and execute the 4 Pillars of ASICS when I'm back.
I start the 4 Pillars on Monday 22/4/24. Just nice to start it before 28/4/24 is due.
That means the 4 Pillars actually started on 1/4/24. 1 pillar at a time until I follow all 4 pillars.
The goal is still weighing 60 kg by 24/11/24. I need to focus on the matters at hand.
The two biggest hurdles are cigarettes and sugar.
Oh yeah, I like to touch on matters resulting in External Affairs. Everything is right on target.
Remember, I am still counting on ONE TRIBE by 24/12/24. So I will flow and time will follow.
The *Is[mail] (Israel) - Hamas War might as well be known as the FOREVER WAR.
* I wonder why the Universe Within brought up this idea.
This year is indeed a Doji Year.
That means, 6/6/24 i[t] (is) the time I break the Doji.
OK... Just flow... Focus on breaking the Doji.
What we are looking for here is a Future Past event. A past event that is already happening in the future.
In this case, the work starts tonight.
SJ 4964
Today I was tempted again. The only things that hold me together are the dates:
The ultimate challenge this year is still smoking and running. I'll start with the Mall walk tomorrow morning.
My issue is to move more. I will start with that tomorrow morning.
I need to eliminate smoking out of my mind.
Don't have to do much. Follow the THAD and OMAD.
By now I concluded that I would never ever smoke again for the rest of my life,
I would rather go for Hacks.
3 more days. Then 18 more days to the nonsmoker qualification.
What is the real reason why I should quit smoking?
I can't simply afford it. Just like cunts, they are too expensive.
Plus I no longer enjoy smoking. I rather suck Hacks sweets.
I need a new routine. This Ramadan is really throwing me off my track.
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SJ 4964
I can do this, my personal mission is not to smoke cigarettes forever and ever.
This Ramadan is the training. If I smoke 30 packs a month, I will be wasting 360 sticks a day. That is equivalent to shortening 2.75 days of life a month.
It is as if saying that I save RM240 a month and gain 2.75 days (synchronicity) of life a month if I don't smoke.
I don't have the urge to drink and smoke pot. It should be the same thing with cigarettes if I keep on persisting.
This is the Golden Reign of the Wood Dragon. I must fight and win.
I am getting stronger by the day.
Only 18% of the population smoke.
As much I love death, I love life even more. Life is given and it is certain.
So I will hold on to life. Death wi[th] (will) surely come. Let it come. When it comes I will be ready.
So no hurry to die. 2.75 days is an Obey and Obey 7:7. That is the sign I have been waiting for. I will not accelerate death. Friday 7/4/34, Year of the Wood Tiger is a perfect date.
So, CHOOSE LIFE...
Choose 22 km Bukit Kiara, Hill Run.
I can say goodbye to worldly matters and concentrate on my Holy Pilgrim. I did as I was told. Now is to march with certainty.
What is there to look forward to?
The best possible outcome is freedom from cigarettes. Next is freedom from sugar. Once that is achieved, the real motherlode is health and happiness.
60 years old is a new beginning altogether.
I have a decade to work on my health. Instead of wasting my life on cigarettes and sugar, I decided to build my health on AHAD and OMAD.
I need to practice mindfulness...
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The Blog is my mining for gold nuggets. As I latch on to ideas, I also sieve the dirt from the valuable stuff. As usual, I got to go through heaps of dirt to get to the gem and jewels.
Nowadays I prefer not to get too philosophical about life.
All it takes is to Sleep Well, Move More, and Eat Right.
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Oh, yeah... Around this time of year last year, I was introduced to the LLM. It can only retain my interest for one year. Beyond that one year, there is no tangible value. At best, it [] (is) just a reflection. I didn't learn much. The two I remember are panpsychism and the word denizen. Other than that the LLM didn't increase my intelligence. It is just doing information dumping.
So as it is, my decision is to stop using LLMs. They are a waste of time.
I am back to the Blog and OneNote.
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SJ 4964
I have extended my support to Alexander. Now he owes me money. That is a big deal for me. This can go into so many ways:
I am to focus on winning my fight with cigarettes and sugar. Only two nemesis. I have 8 months to go. Settle the Ramadan Blues and the 1st of Syawal Binging, I will be off to a great start.
Once Syawal is over, I can start concentrating on my training.
I will not waste my money on Alexander. This is a show of power.
So I play i[s] (it) as it was ordained to me.
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I will play to win regardless of which side I represent.
I got to win over cigarettes and sugar to be the King of the Hill.
No more cigarettes. No more sugar.
Tonight is the night I upped the ante for the grand finale on 10/4/24.
5 more days to go.
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SJ 4964
The pivotal question is, "Will I improve my emotional well-being if I write in the Blog first and then transfer to OneNote?"
That is the hypothesis. The result is the ability to stop smoking until 10/4/24.
If it is successful, then we can validate one working model.
After all, I am done with Sparta 4964. Now is to settle the score on Earth.
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The aim is to make Earth into a heavenly place all over again.
To do that I have to delight the Universe Within. The first requirement is to breathe fresh air. The moment I smoke, I am a loser. I need to abstain from smoking.
Five more days to the moment of truth. I can do it. Just say no.
I shall fight this craving.
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SJ 4964
I am used to it. Writing on OneNote is different. There is no interaction. Here, I know I have an audience.
It is not a life-changing experience. It's just my way of keeping myself accompanied.
This cigarette cessation better works. This is my 4th day on this dry run and I am aiming for 10 days.
The previous dry run was 15 days.
I can do this... 6 more days to go.
No more esoteric thoughts.
OK, that's it for tonight.
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SJ 4964
