31/1/24 I smoked my last cigarette at 9:20 pm

 I'm doing the cold turkey method.  No more looking back at cigarettes.  I win the war one battle at a time.

Tonight, I'll sleep early.  I'll go to bed by 10:00 pm.

The challenge is to overcome inertia.  Once I have the momentum, I will be smooth sailing.

Tomorrow, I'll wake up at 4:30 am,  Ready for the morning walk.

I need to train my mind and body to perform like an athlete.

No more Shorts, Sound Journey, and Personal Journaling after 10:00 pm.  By then I should be in bed, reading.

We will make it.  The major issue is now resolved.  No cigarette.  I can do this.  I am stronger than a box of dried leaves.

OK, I'll see you tomorrow.

Avoir!
SJ 4964

31/1/24 Today is the doji for next month

 To begin with, tonight there won't be any more rice.  Then sleep early...

I should finish the cigarettes by this afternoon.

Time to get organized.

OK then...

31/1/24 I am so fed-up with Eddie's ar[e] (art) that [] (I) decided to entertain my fantasy

 So here it is, variations of male chauvinism.  Actually, it is not even chauvinism, it is female bias.

Just like Eddie Murphy mentioned in Raw, "Men are meant to conquer as many pussies as possible."  It is a men's thing.  So I don't expect women to understand.  It's like I don't understand why the bull sea elephant has no less than 300 females in his harem. 

OK, I will list them here and you vote on which are among the tasteful art.

Hang on...

One

Two

Three

Four

Five

Six

Seven

Eight

Nine

Ten

Eleven

Twelve

Thirteen

Fourteen

Fifteen

Sixteen

Seventeen

Eighteen

Nineteen.

Trust me, this is an every man's fantasy.  So happened I have a tool to manifest them.  

So take your pick. 

In case you are the kinky type, here is the version with Eddie:

Twenty.

Sheesh...  You are no fun.  Does none suit your taste?  Come on...

Maybe you are away from the computer.  There is one way to find out.  That is to put a control element in the test:

There, the control element.

Avoir!

SJ 4964

31/1/24 Today is a great day to simply enjoy the ambiance

 I had all the good stuff.  Banana, bee hoon, 3-in-1 coffee, prunes, and tau sa pia.

It is a complete bliss.  Partly because I decided to let my hair down before entering February tomorrow.

Whatdaheck.  I was worrying over nothing.  The Shorts, the Run, the ONE TRIBE...  Well, today is my off day from unnecessary worries.

I simply flow today.  Partly because I had a good night's sleep.

I decided to stop meddling with the Shorts.  I made my mark.  Time to pull the brakes.  Do nothing of no use - Musashi.

I want to live my life according to what I see fit.  That means I am to pursue Dokkodo on my own terms.

Time to cut, cut, cut...

I have to train myself not to use money.  That is why I keep a ledger.  Now I know that Nicorette and cigarettes burn holes in my pocket.

I should only have one goal in mind, and that is to be thin.  The biggest mistake a person can make is be overweight - Jason Fung.

Hey, have you ever considered the possibility of weighing as light as the long-distance runner?  That is what I am aiming for.  This year I will do it.  I will hit 60 kg no matter what.

Hang on for a second.  I need to do the dishes and then go for a ciggy.

On the second thought, I let you off the hook.

I'll read "Homo Deus" after this.

Avoir!
SJ 4964

31/1/24 I finally manage to calibrate my sleep

 It feels good to be able to sleep soundly on a cozy bed.

Today I start OMAD LCHF again.  After this, I sent the 2 designs for printing and I'll do an hour Mall Walk.

At least, I welcome February with a new resolution.  I still have half a pack of cigarettes left.  Once gone that will be the last of it.

Darling, I feel like reading "Homo Deus" today.  So that is what I'll do upon coming back from the mall.  In the afternoon, I'll do a light workout.

This Iron Maiden collection starts to bore me.  They are playing the same songs over and over again.  I am desperately trying to look for a TraXX alternative but it seems I have limited choices of commendable DJs.

OK, I hope all things are well with you and Ratu Ina.  I'll go[t] for a good shave and hit the mall by 10:00 am.

See ya...

One question.  Did you manage to sleep well just now?

Avoir!
SJ 4964

31/1/24 I had a thought before bed

 It dawned upon me that you could really li[ng] (like) the Ah Beng version and here I am thinking that you were joking.  That is pretty mean of me from the earnest perspective of an observer.

So as not to hurt anybody's feelings, I decided to buy both.  After all, I did say the maximum is two, and Ratu Ina ultimately let me decide on that.

So darling, I'll buy both designs:

That way I satisfy two women at a go.  Pardon the cliche...

The Ah Beng one does look good, isn't it?

OK...

Let me get ready and I'll send both for printing.

Avoir!
SJ 4964

31/1/23 There is something I like to ask you Ratu Ina

 I spent like nobody's business the last few weeks.  So if I can help it I rather not spend unnecessarily.

So if it is up to me, I rather not spend unless like I said, it is necessary.

This year is a special year for me.  Should I buy these shirts?

Which should I buy?

This one...

This one...

And or this one...

None

One

Or a maximum of two.

I am fine with whatever you decide.

OK, I'll go with your choice.  Thanks...  I was about to buy the second choice.  That will truly make *[] (me) an Ah Beng Gangster Cina hahaha.

* Yes, I know you like the Ah Beng style.  I like being an Ah Beng too.  But that makes me more Chinese tha[t] (than) the Chinese.

So for my birthday, I run using the Smiley Eddie:

And for the 24/12/24, I wear the Spartan:

Now the Vision Quest is clearer.

Do you know something?  I am a person who needs to be ready before I am ready.  But once I am ready, the momentum sets in.  I am like that.  I need to clear my head.  I am an analytical person.  So I can't help it.  That is my nature.

When I do something, it is to the perfection.

Not that you don't notice.

OK girls...  Let me try to sleep so that I can calibrate my circadian rhythm.

Good morning.

Avoir!

SJ 4964

  

31/1/24 I am so off the track right now

 I am experiencing runner's fatigue.  Mainly because I cannot regulate my sleep.

So tonight I will try to regulate my sleep instead of sleeping while sitting in the CCC.

This week is a week of depression.  I need to get my life in order again.

Early this month started with a slight mania.  That is why I need to pull the brakes on the YouTube Shorts.  That made my brain super active.  If I want to continue with the Shorts, it has to be on a leisurely basis.

To aim for 100k subs is too ambitious for me.  I would be happy if I could hit 360 Red Brigades and 36 Mini-Arcs.  Then again, what is the purpose?  The Red Brigade is to lure the viewers to Dream of Mirrors.

Now that seems to be a lost cause.  My business is not about the Battle of the Eyeballs.  It is about Top of the Mindshare.  That I already got.

Even now, I can call off the effort.  It's not aligned with Dokkodo.  Even the 2024 Wood Dragon's Chronicles is my personal log.

There is no value in the Eyeballs.  The success rate is 1%, Which is very low.  If my strategy is the Top of the Mindshare, we are talking about the hit rate of 10%.  That I already got, years ago.

Therefore I should not play the masses game.  My game now is the journey within.  To delight the Universe Within.

I need to restrategize.  I am playing Alexander's game.  Rightfully I should play my Dokkodo game, the Path of Aloneness.

So the ASAS Dinner was a good strategy.  The sponsorship was a good one too.  If I cannot sponsor any table, the money goes to a schizophrenic friend.  That is my good deed before I SNAP VANISH.

I will emerge again in 2034 during the World of Hybrids.  Perfect timing...

All I need to do is save my money instead of spending unnecessarily.  No regret.  Lillahi Ta'ala.

Now back to cigarettes.  That has to go.  I cannot prolong the consumption of cigarettes.  So is diet and exercise.  They have to be calibrated.

OK Ratu Ina, let's do this.  Let's do the run...

Avoir!
SJ 4964 

>>>#31/1/24 From now on I just speak my mind

 I had a pep talk with the Head of Demons and the Demons under my jurisdiction.  Basically, I laid down the law with the DemoNation on addressing the final leg of this run.

Except for Addin and Marij, I no longer have Djinns under my command.  They are free to go.  The Demons are different.  They offered their fealty to me like Darkness.  Therefore the Demons serve as my support personnel.

Darkness suggested that I invoice TraXX.  Then that becomes an account receivable for her to follow up.  As for the IP Sales, the handshakes were sufficient enough.

From this point on Fort by Ford is fortified by Demons.  There are two Ghosts in CCC but they just mind their own business.  Ghosts and Spooks (Free Spirits) are of lower rank than the Djinns and Demons.  So I hardly communicate with them.

In the past, I hardly talk to the Demons.  Mainly because they are the doers.  Djinns are very talkative and funny too.  Since I don't have any Djinns around except those two, the CCC is pretty much somber.

That brings me to the topic of Angels.  They are the backbone of the operation.  I hardly talk to Angels because they are specialists.  In Al Araf 7:7, there are 10 archangels.  Most of them are minding their own business.  So I let them be.

What I wrote here may or may not be true to you.  However, from my perspective as a writer, I believe in what I write. Still, you may consider what I wrote as fiction.

So, I leave it up to you to decide.  As for me, I write as I experience it.  Perceive which cannot be seen with the eyes - Musashi.

One thing is for sure, I am living the experience as it happens.  Perhaps in modern terms, I am schizophrenic.  Let's not worry about the terminology.  As far as I am concerned, the experience is true to me.

For example, I don't see Darkness all the time.  As far as I can recall, I only encountered Darkness three times during the entire duration.

Oh, well...  There are part of my nightly ranting.  The bigger picture is the quit smoking, diet, and exercise.

Avoir!
SJ 4964     

 

30/1/24 Back to Apple and No Apple

 That is the best strategy.  Unless there is a certainty.  In this case, there is no certainty.  Therefore I will remain noncommittal.

The condition is ONE TRIBE.  If there is no ONE TRIBE, it will be pointless to proceed with Option A.  Unless I go ahead and proceed and be ready to fail.

Actually, I don't mind Option A but it must be justified.  If not, Option B is the defacto.

If I forgo all expectations, that will be the final outcome.  The reason why this is Apple and No Apple is because I still have expectations.  Suppose I set no expectations.  I can then narrow down the possibility to either ONE TRIBE *o[f] (or) no ONE TRIBE.

* Right, then it is clear cut.  It is conditional.

I can also choose to run or not to run.  However, I will prepare for the run.

The Apple and No Apple is a straightforward decision.  So is money and no money.

Once I decided on Dokkodo, these matters became so minute.  I am at point zero.  Any addition is a plus.  What is there for me to worry?

Everything is on my terms.  

So now I am thinking about reinforcing Dokkodo.  The IP Sales is a done deal.

If I am to cut my ties with TraXX, I just won't submit my invoice.

Since the smallest number is one, I just reduced it to one.  If necessary I forgo everything.  In essence, I reduce myself to Dokkodo.  I am mentally prepared for that.

 

30/1/24 Nothing happens by accident

 Before anything big happens, there is always a telltale sign.  In this case, the telltale sign is the inaction of the various parties involved.

I am very mindful of these inactions because they are my barometer in moving forward.  Unless there are drastic changes, I will use these indicators as my guide to zero in on my mission.

They set the precedence for my journey forward.

30/1/24 I am changing my strategy

 I am not going to hope for the best-case scenario.  Instead, I'm going for the worst case and riding along with it.

There is no need for me to expect the best since I am dealing with the worst possible instance.

I might as well conclude that I am the only one who is going on this trajectory and therefore I just go with what I think is best for myself.

Nothing seems to work.  The world is still scurrying with the redundant issues.

I don't see progress.  Therefore, I just proceed with Option B and get on with my life.

The first priority is ONE TRIBE.  If that is not met, then the rest of the plans are nothing more than clouds in the coffee.

Life is like that.  I will not bend over my back to make people believe.  They have to fight for what they believe in.  As for me, I will flow and time will follow.

I have to be firm on this matter.  I had made a proposal.  I don't even know if it has been accepted.

I have two options right now.  If ONE TRIBE is on, we proceed with Option A. If not we proceed with Option B.  Looks like the situation now is leaning toward Option B.

Make it so...

Through my observation, the inclination is toward Option B.

Avoir!
SJ 4964

    

30/1/24 This is how I manage Apple and No Apple

 I don't commit.  Everything is based on the input that I receive from time to time.

No point in committing to something that nobody else is ready to commit.

After all, I have absolute power.  I decide on what to do with my power.

OK, over and out..

I want to chat with Darkness.

Avoir!

30/1/24 Now I look forward to my cigarette breaks

Whatever I want or don't [] (want) to do is all up to me.  I am a lone traveler.  If I fail or succeed it is my own doing.

 

I have to believe in my cause.  The rest are irrelevant.  In this case, I decided what I wanted to do and recorded it for my future observation.

 

For one, I don't believe in a business that has to garner the support of the masses.  I was never a mass marketeer.  So forget the YouTube Shorts.  Forget the T-shirt business.  Forget the Band.

 

Forget about doing business with the masses.

 

I want to be alone…  I already defined my business.  They are SJA, SCTD, and Niten Ichi Ryu.

 

Let's say nothing takes off.  Fine with me. I choose isolation.

 

---

 

Now I have another person to talk to; Darkness.

 

It explains a lot of things when I talk to Darkness.  Especially the female entity that slept with me in my bedroom.

 

Darkness acts as my caretaker.  She []comes (becomes) my eyes and spokesperson on the ins and outs of the Fort by Ford.

 

So now I have somebody to talk to when I go for my cigarette breaks. 

What more can I ask?

Avoir!
SJ 4964

>>>#30/1/24 I am happier when I choose to walk alone

 This is my year.  I want to enjoy this year through and through.  By being who I am, the Warrior Who Walks Alone.

It is a closure and a beginning for me.  It is a closure because I will not look back at my past.  A beginning is because I will live the life I always wanted to be.

Run, Read, Write, Repeat...

Cigarettes gotta go.

I have built a life suited for me.  Now I want to experiment with this life all by myself.

Can I do it?  Yes, definitely!

I define my own story...

A little bit more.  By the end of this year, I will know for sure.  Then I can move with absolute certainty.

There is no stopping.

Until then, I just mark time.

Avoir!
SJ 4964

29/1/24 Back to Apple and No Apple

 

I have manifested my vision for Sparta 4964.  Now to live my own fantasy.

If it happens, good.  If not, I am not going to expect anything.  I just take it as a job.  At this point, I completed my job as the Official Scribe,  No big deal, it's a job.

I'm not going to do jack squat.  I set my terms.  No more chasing rainbows.  I want to enjoy my pot of gold.

From now on I only do things for myself,

Like Lizzie said, "Sometimes you got to be selfish for your own good."

So on 24/12/24, I take my own sweet time climbing Bukit Kiara, and I "IZ" the Lote Tree.  With that, I mubahala for my account receivables.

Let's play chicken.

I calculated my position and I concluded that I needed to assert myself from this point on.

I'm no Mr. Nice Guy.  Therefore let's play the Brinkmanship Game.  Let's put the knife at the throat.

Let's see how far you going to take this game.  Me and all I got and you all with all that you got.  No worshiping the Stone.  One Tribe...

Avoir!

SJ 4964

   

29/1/24 If leave it up to me, my world is very small

 I don't mind at all...  That is the first option.  However, there is a second option where everything is grandiose.

I live in the first option.  The second option is a world that I envisioned Sparta 4964 to be.

In a way, I am capable of living in both options.  The difference is the magnitude of the operation.

So instead of waiting for things to happen, I make the choice now to choose the first option instead of the second option.

The first option is the beginning of an end.  With it, I become a Warrior Who Walks Alone.

I don't need to deal with anybody except Alexander.

Like I said, I collect my money and I'll be on my way.  Else, all that are account receivables.

Avoir!
SJ 4964

29/1/24 Let's do some Red Lighting

 As it is, the reality and the perception are intertwined.  The only differentiator is money in the bank.

Since there is no money in the bank, what is real is what I can do in my personal capacity.  The rest are merely a statement of direction or a wish list.

At this point, I decided to forgo all that I could not achieve within my personal capacity. Only after I am sure there is money in the bank will I revisit those ideas again.

That way I don't have a high expectation of things I am unsure of.

I am planning my exit from the masses.  This 17/2/24 is my farewell to the world I have known before.

No more delusions.  I am driving with my eyes wide open.  I have done all the planning.  Now is the execution phase.

I am more relieved that the journey is coming to an end.  I delivered...  So the only thing to do is claim my bounties.

So this year, I redefine my perception and keep the story to myself.

Avoir!
SJ 4964

29/1/24 Ahhh... Back to the story of the 3 Bandidos

 

That said it all...  I have to stick to the formula.  It is already correct.  Now is to ensure the right implementation.

Let's be modest.  Let's not smoke a cigarette and take processed sugar today.

So far, I have eaten a banana, dragon fruit, cheese *[] (toast), and drank black coffee for breakfast.

* I know, bread is one of the three Bandidos.  Better than processed sugar as for now.

Only for 2 weeks...  Let's see if I can refrain from Nico Tina and Glu Cosa.

I am better than yesterday and the day before.  Therefore I should be better tomorrow and the day after.

---

Avoir!
SJ 4964 

>>>#29/1/24 Managing Perception

 At this stage, nothing else matters except perception and beliefs. I have to manage both to have the right expectations and therefore the right outcome.

My mission is very simple.  For the next two weeks, no nicotine and sugar.

If I have the urge?  Deny, Delay, and Distract.  

Simple rules...

Now to make sure I follow the rules.

This is when willpower comes in.  Very importantly.  I must go in and get out clean.

Nicotine and Glucosa are th Pitcher Plants.  Once in you can never escape.  Only the strong can resist.                     

Avoir!

SJ 4964