4/3/24 I can't smoke now, I have locked on the date for the next 28 days

 I cannot go on smoking.  The joy of smoking is very short-lived.  Max is two hours.  I might as well find joy in eating bananas and drinking coffee,

Smoking is totally out of the question.  I have locked on 31/3/24, 1st Syawal and 6/5/24 (27th Syawal).  I have even locked on 14/4/24, my trip to Hokkaido.

So, it's a sealed deal.  No question about it.  There is lost hope in smoking.  Of false attempts to secure empty hopes beyond the frames of the deadlines.

Never take another puff.  The minute I break the barrier, I can never recover for life.  Here I am, only needing to sustain myself for 28 days.

I can do this.  I can break the Bronco.

All the mind tricks are the doing of Nico Tina to get me to smoke only ONE Puff.  If she manages to do that, she owns me for life.

I have to teach my mind to NEVER TAKE ANOTHER PUFF.  That is the lesson here.  That ONE Puff...

Not one box and not one stick, even.  It is to the very detail.  To that ONE innocent Puff.

Once you are hooked, it is FOR LIFE.  From ONE single puff, it lasted for 45 years.  Just to feel normal by smoking a cigarette.  I can feel normal without a cigarette if I manage to abstain for 28 days.

I must fight this insidious act of slavery.

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