As if it was my idea all along.
Trust me, it never crossed my mind that I am the one-winged bee pollinating all the flowers.
I don't even know why I drew the caricature in the first place. The impulse came and went like the Zephyr Wind, never to come back again.
Imagine, with all the humping, I will end up as the Robot Puki. My, oh my.
So that is the Ultimate Prize. To be the Sole Alpha Male or SAM. I can live with that...
Thus, this storyline has already been decided beforehand. I am playing the part as the story progresses.
I need help understanding that it doesn't veer towards me being a runner.
There is always the part where my knee aches, my foot is painful and my training progresses at a snail's pace.
And until the 28 days, I shall ignore the signs of nicotine cravings.
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As a SAM, I shall produce only daughters. Gosh, I thought it was within the Realm of Angels. Now it is very clear that i[s] (it) covers the entire Sparta 4964.
So I am ready to celebrate. I ended with eating Rempeyek. NEVER SMOKE AGAIN. NO MORE NICOTINE. I have 15 days to go.
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I forgot the length of the cause-set-in-motion since 2016 that leads to the decision today but I'm sure glad that in the end, it is back to cigarettes and sugar, the two evils throughout my li[k]e (life) and not some unknown AntiChrist whasoever.
Also Sparta 4964 is something personal. Unlike a foreign domain that I am not familiar with.
So it is true, the battle is within.
I already won the battle of the 28 days on the 1st Day of Ramadan. If he wants to make it easy, God can make it easy.
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So here I am, living the life of SAM.
I did go through the scenario last night. Looks like everything is in order.
Alam Shah Alam is satisfied with the whole thing.
So with that I can live happily ever after. I really feel like chewing some Nicorette but I holdback.
No more nicotine...
SJ 4964
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