31/1/24 I am so off the track right now

 I am experiencing runner's fatigue.  Mainly because I cannot regulate my sleep.

So tonight I will try to regulate my sleep instead of sleeping while sitting in the CCC.

This week is a week of depression.  I need to get my life in order again.

Early this month started with a slight mania.  That is why I need to pull the brakes on the YouTube Shorts.  That made my brain super active.  If I want to continue with the Shorts, it has to be on a leisurely basis.

To aim for 100k subs is too ambitious for me.  I would be happy if I could hit 360 Red Brigades and 36 Mini-Arcs.  Then again, what is the purpose?  The Red Brigade is to lure the viewers to Dream of Mirrors.

Now that seems to be a lost cause.  My business is not about the Battle of the Eyeballs.  It is about Top of the Mindshare.  That I already got.

Even now, I can call off the effort.  It's not aligned with Dokkodo.  Even the 2024 Wood Dragon's Chronicles is my personal log.

There is no value in the Eyeballs.  The success rate is 1%, Which is very low.  If my strategy is the Top of the Mindshare, we are talking about the hit rate of 10%.  That I already got, years ago.

Therefore I should not play the masses game.  My game now is the journey within.  To delight the Universe Within.

I need to restrategize.  I am playing Alexander's game.  Rightfully I should play my Dokkodo game, the Path of Aloneness.

So the ASAS Dinner was a good strategy.  The sponsorship was a good one too.  If I cannot sponsor any table, the money goes to a schizophrenic friend.  That is my good deed before I SNAP VANISH.

I will emerge again in 2034 during the World of Hybrids.  Perfect timing...

All I need to do is save my money instead of spending unnecessarily.  No regret.  Lillahi Ta'ala.

Now back to cigarettes.  That has to go.  I cannot prolong the consumption of cigarettes.  So is diet and exercise.  They have to be calibrated.

OK Ratu Ina, let's do this.  Let's do the run...

Avoir!
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