23/8/24 I am free to start again on a new topic

 Let's start on a happy note and move from there.

For instance, let's assume that all that is ever created is actually meant for us to ponder upon.  Certainly there are a lot of pondering needed to satisfy our curiosity.

For example, I often ponder, why in the hell you are wasting time on me?  What is it that is so special about my writing?  So, that prompted me to think that I have something special to write.  Thus it inspired for me to write something special.

In reality there is nothing special about what I have written.  I tend to ponder a lot about my existence and I enjoy the creation process.

Have you ever wonder if any of this brings any value to you or anybody else?

I write because it is enjoyable.  So I reckon, to you, it is the reading part that get you hooked,  In that case it is a symbiotic relationship.  That and we share a common value.  Otherwise there is no handshake.

To me, I like an adventurous life.  I am always exploring.  So it is fun when there is a hitchhiker or two who share the same journey.

In the end, there is nothing to it. Just like reading a book or going to the movie.  The difference here is I dare to push it to the brink.  When I hit the wall I look for another frontier.

That is exactly what I did to the God Question.  Take it to the brink.  See how many doors it opens.  In this kind of exploration, it is important to differentiate between upping the ante and calling off the bluff.

That's what I intend to do 1/9/24.  I intend to find out what is the real deal.  Somehow I am not satisfied with the answers I received.  I don't want to believe, I want to know.

My mind can take me on a trajectory, beyond that I need validation.  While all the time maintaining my autonomy.

It could not be nothing.  All the while there is always something.

So if it is something, it must be something worthwhile because it cannot be worthless if is worth something.

Here I am a specialist in my own subject matter.  Surely I can separate the heaps of dirt from the real deal.

You too are specialists.  You know I am to something.  Otherwise why waste time?  So far we have collected valuable data to construct a model.

My model is flawed toward the end.  I was building a model based on a failed experiment.  This is where we are at right now.  How do I proceed from failure to success? 

So if you are keen to explore this avenue, hop on the bandwagon.

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