13/8/24 If this is madness, it is very cruel

 There is no escape and there is no knowing either.  I guess, I have to own it lock stock, and barrel.

So what is my benchmark?  In my opinion, I should look at my life in gratitude.  The fact that I am six feet above ground is already a good indicator.  

I shouldn't be too hard on myself.  Everything works like a well-oiled machinery.  No complaints at all.

The only thing is, I should be wary of abnormal occurrences in my life.

Everybody is crazy at one point or the other in their lives.  Just be happy about it.  Someday I know I can get past this stage.

One thing is for sure, I already declared my autonomy from all these shenanigans.  I am a totally independent agent.  I don't report to anybody and vice versa.

Life is simply bliss.  Don't take that away from me.  I will not bear to go through another depression.

I can live with this state of mind and I am very sure I will avoid taking dope or any other harmful substances.

If I can carry on living [living] like this in gratitude, I am set for life.  Life should be simple but not simpler.

What is there to worry? It's not like I am starving to death.

I got to live the life that I wanted.

I am going to discard things that don't contribute to my general well-being.  These are the esoteric stuff that I cannot validate.

If it comes [] (it comes), if not it has an insignificant impact on my life.  I shall adopt the principle of existential materialism in my life.

I got to cut through the belief system myself.  Get rid of the irrelevant facts and the imagined realities that are not useful[?]

What is the only useful belief that is useful that I cannot validate right now?  The notion that there is a god and this god [] is fair.

The rest goes out of the window, into the dumpster.  It is spring cleaning and I am clearing my closet.

So that is the one I hold on to.  With that, I am on my way to becoming an Autonomous Autotheist.

The less of these beliefs I have the better.

From now on, unless there is clear evidence, I don't simply believe.  There are so many fictions going around in my head that the sieving process must start there.

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