4/2/24 Let's say we cut all the esoteric stuff

 We maintain the face value of each encounter. Will it affect the encounters in the same manner?

If the encounters are still the same, then there are only two possibilities:

•  Humans are using the technology to throw a prank
• Darkness is using sophisticated tools to enhance her communication with me

There is no way I can tell except if either party confessed it's them.

Right now there are too many sensors but too few means to verify.

Perhaps my role is not to verify but rather to experience the occurrences as they come.

Synchronicity is rampant.  So perhaps I am aligning with the universe after all.

I don't really know.  What I do know is I shouldn't smoke cigarettes anymore if I want to reach Peak State.

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4/2/24 In defense of "Makhluk Halus"

 

 

 

I want to make a stand in defense of the "Makhluk Halus" (The Refined Creatures).

 

I don't quite understand why we should be scared of them.  In my experience, they are acceptable in their original forms.

 

The two ghosts that live in CCC don't look like the ghosts you see in the movies.  In their original forms, they look more like shadows.

 

So is Darkness.  She is just a dark shadow.  Those ghosts and demons with fangs and menacing claws are the human artists' depiction of them; probably while under the influence of psychedelic mushrooms or some mind-altering herbs.

 

My advice is don't be afraid of them.  They were highly stigmatized by the cultural arts of those intoxicated artists and shamans.

 

If we take them as they are, these Makhluk Halus are very sophisticated.  As we evolved, so did they.

 

My only term with Darkness is to not startle me.  I don't like this terkejut-terkejut thing.

 

So far so good...

 

There [] (is) one thing I like to know, *i[t] (is) the "Hi" and the "singing resonant" coming from the radio caused by Darkness or one of you playing your pranks?

 

 *OK, I take your word for it.  Just [k]now I heard the sound of glasses, I can't confirm whether it came from the kitchen o[f] (or) the radio. 

 

I suspect more demons are coming.  I have a kaleidoscope of smells whiffing through my nose.

 

All are fine as long as bukan terkejut-terkejut.

 

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Avoir!

SJ 4964

 

>>>#4/2/24 Sleepless night

 I was already asleep when I was awakened by Lizzie.  She had turned on the bedroom light.

And so I laid around for a while trying to go back to sleep.  To my dismay, I cannot sleep!  Thus, I decided to make myself a 3-in-1 Iced Coffee and chowed down 2 tau sa pia.

This is a cool night.  The treats were a total delight.  I like it very much.  It allows me to be in my own realm.  I realized that the feel-good feeling can go 2 ways.  I can extend the feeling with a cigarette punctuation.  If I do that, I haven't learned from my past.

Another option is to allow the feel-good feeling to go on perpetually beyond the need to punctuate it with a cigarette.  This is where true happiness lies.  If I do that, the body will learn to respond with a higher level of happiness without the need to depend on cigarettes.

Therefore quitting cigarettes is about teaching the body to produce the feel-good chemical without the need to depend on cigarettes.

It is about regulating dopamine.  It is OK when the brain can still produce dopamine from the diet and exercise.  The challenge is regulating dopamine when there is a dopamine void.

Then sleep becomes paramount.  So is daily exercise and the right nutrition.

We tackle one issue at a time. Let's deal with the dopamine continuation.  If I can do that, then I won't get depressed.  The single biggest thing in managing dopamine fluctuation is the ability to Walk the Path Alone.

Therefore, the most important thing is to not allow the dopamine to deplete.  I am doing it now with food.  I should regulate it with exercise and sleep.

Still need to master sleep well, move more, and eat right.

Most importantly JUST SAY NO to cigarettes.

That is my mission for the next 2 months before Ramadan.

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Let's concentrate on the Four Tenets of Health:

• No Smoking
• No Three Bandidos
• AHAD
• OMAD LCHF

Only 4 things to do.

On Monday, we start the 10 km training.

The Dokkodo is a great idea.  I am at peace...

Avoir!

SJ 4964

 

>>>#3/2/24 I change my behavior by changing my mindset

 The challenge is to develop the right mindset.  Once I am clear of what I should become, naturally my behavior will follow suit.

Since I want to be a Peak Performer, naturally [] (I) need to be in the Peak State.  Therefore, being in Peak State is to do everything that enhances my Peak Performance.

That includes the Three Pillars of ASICS and The Four Tenets of Health.

• Sleep Well
• Move More
• Eat Right

• No Smoking
• No Three Bandidos
• AHAD
• OMAD LCHF

I need to be in isolation and decide what is best for myself.  January was the month when we saw the defocused effort derailing the entire initiative.

So February is the month to recalibrate.  My role model now is Tom Cruise:

I can live with this kind of modeling.  So far, I am experiencing the peak state through abstinence from smoking.

It seems that "JUST SAY NO!" is the most effective phrase to be a peak performer.

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OK, time for bed...

Avoir!

SJ 4964

2/2/24 Time to calibrate

 I feel relieved that I decided to quit smoking.  Finally, I am no longer a slave to nicotine.  Better still I have a plan tomorrow to walk KL.  That thought is so motivating to me right now.

Of all the things that motivate me, I found out intrinsic motivation works the best.

I am done with extrinsic motivation.

I have too many things that I bought and do not use. 

So I cap my purchases for this year to Fish Oil, Dental, and Running Shoes.

No more purchasing of things.  Too many things.

Food perhaps, but not things.

I need to lose weight.  That is for sure.  I[t] (If) I weigh 75 kg I will be very motivated to run every other day.

I have 15 kg to go.

OK, time to go to bed.

I talk to you both after the walk.

Avoir!
SJ 4964

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2/2/24 Now I am mentally ready

 I quit cigarettes at 6:45 pm today.  No more cigarettes.  Tomorrow morning I [a]ll ('ll) go to KL for my 12 km walk.

It is quite timely too.  The two dragons t-shirts are ready for collection.

What happened to Ratu Ina?  She had been very quiet lately.

I'll wear the dragon insignia for tomorrow.  Perhaps Azzue can join me for the walk.

It is perfect timing.  From now on I make a point to walk KL every Saturday morning.

Azzue cannot make it.  I just do it by myself then.

I want to be in the cocooning stage from this point on.  That way I can stay focused.

I will only do 4 Red Brigades per week on Fridays.  Other tha[t] (than) that, I focus on Run, Read, Write, Repeat.

I am mentally preparing for what my life to be like in the future.  Living in isolation.

Then I just focus on my runs.  If I can do that consistently, I will be healthy and happy.

 But first, I need to step out of my comfort zone.

OK, I gotta go and collect my T-shirts.

Later...

Avoir!
SJ 4964

>>>#2/2/24 This is my narrative

 I will continue going through with this trajectory.  In other words, I will continue moving toward my course of action.

I will not expect anything from anybody.  I just do what I plan to do without having any expectation to be reciprocated for my effort.

I know who I am and what I am capable of doing.  If nothing happens, at least I have lived through the adventure in my mind.

As I mentioned to Sarah a long time ag[e] (ago), the Vision is the Vision of Sparta 4964.  It was her idea that we bring the idea here and now.

Therefore, as far as I am concerned, the vision is alive and well.  I am the Visionary Leader.  I am the one who was bestowed with the Vision.  Hence, the Vision is something that has been projected to me based on a reference point.  All I need to do is keep the Vision alive.

None of what I do matters to others.  I run or I don't run doesn't mean jack squat to anyone of you.  So I decided to do it my way.  I will train for the run.  I will complete the run.  However, I will stake my claim on the IP Sales.

If during the run I sense that nothing is happening in my favor, I will mubahalah.  That is a fair deal.  We play chicken.  Then perhaps we can tell if I am bluffing or if I am a real deal.

As far as I am concerned, I carry a loaded gun.  So go ahead and dare the Daredevil.

The way I see it, I am here as a servomechanist.  I [am] have a job to do and my job is going to be completed by the end of this year.  So it's kinda late to play a fool like a fool.  This is where form is form and emptiness is emptiness.

I will flow and time will follow.  My deal is ONE TRIBE or no deal.  The IP Sales is a done deal.

If you want me to be the Pied Piper of Hamelin, go ahead and make my day.

Avoir!
SJ 4964