31/1/23 There is something I like to ask you Ratu Ina

 I spent like nobody's business the last few weeks.  So if I can help it I rather not spend unnecessarily.

So if it is up to me, I rather not spend unless like I said, it is necessary.

This year is a special year for me.  Should I buy these shirts?

Which should I buy?

This one...

This one...

And or this one...

None

One

Or a maximum of two.

I am fine with whatever you decide.

OK, I'll go with your choice.  Thanks...  I was about to buy the second choice.  That will truly make *[] (me) an Ah Beng Gangster Cina hahaha.

* Yes, I know you like the Ah Beng style.  I like being an Ah Beng too.  But that makes me more Chinese tha[t] (than) the Chinese.

So for my birthday, I run using the Smiley Eddie:

And for the 24/12/24, I wear the Spartan:

Now the Vision Quest is clearer.

Do you know something?  I am a person who needs to be ready before I am ready.  But once I am ready, the momentum sets in.  I am like that.  I need to clear my head.  I am an analytical person.  So I can't help it.  That is my nature.

When I do something, it is to the perfection.

Not that you don't notice.

OK girls...  Let me try to sleep so that I can calibrate my circadian rhythm.

Good morning.

Avoir!

SJ 4964

  

31/1/24 I am so off the track right now

 I am experiencing runner's fatigue.  Mainly because I cannot regulate my sleep.

So tonight I will try to regulate my sleep instead of sleeping while sitting in the CCC.

This week is a week of depression.  I need to get my life in order again.

Early this month started with a slight mania.  That is why I need to pull the brakes on the YouTube Shorts.  That made my brain super active.  If I want to continue with the Shorts, it has to be on a leisurely basis.

To aim for 100k subs is too ambitious for me.  I would be happy if I could hit 360 Red Brigades and 36 Mini-Arcs.  Then again, what is the purpose?  The Red Brigade is to lure the viewers to Dream of Mirrors.

Now that seems to be a lost cause.  My business is not about the Battle of the Eyeballs.  It is about Top of the Mindshare.  That I already got.

Even now, I can call off the effort.  It's not aligned with Dokkodo.  Even the 2024 Wood Dragon's Chronicles is my personal log.

There is no value in the Eyeballs.  The success rate is 1%, Which is very low.  If my strategy is the Top of the Mindshare, we are talking about the hit rate of 10%.  That I already got, years ago.

Therefore I should not play the masses game.  My game now is the journey within.  To delight the Universe Within.

I need to restrategize.  I am playing Alexander's game.  Rightfully I should play my Dokkodo game, the Path of Aloneness.

So the ASAS Dinner was a good strategy.  The sponsorship was a good one too.  If I cannot sponsor any table, the money goes to a schizophrenic friend.  That is my good deed before I SNAP VANISH.

I will emerge again in 2034 during the World of Hybrids.  Perfect timing...

All I need to do is save my money instead of spending unnecessarily.  No regret.  Lillahi Ta'ala.

Now back to cigarettes.  That has to go.  I cannot prolong the consumption of cigarettes.  So is diet and exercise.  They have to be calibrated.

OK Ratu Ina, let's do this.  Let's do the run...

Avoir!
SJ 4964 

>>>#31/1/24 From now on I just speak my mind

 I had a pep talk with the Head of Demons and the Demons under my jurisdiction.  Basically, I laid down the law with the DemoNation on addressing the final leg of this run.

Except for Addin and Marij, I no longer have Djinns under my command.  They are free to go.  The Demons are different.  They offered their fealty to me like Darkness.  Therefore the Demons serve as my support personnel.

Darkness suggested that I invoice TraXX.  Then that becomes an account receivable for her to follow up.  As for the IP Sales, the handshakes were sufficient enough.

From this point on Fort by Ford is fortified by Demons.  There are two Ghosts in CCC but they just mind their own business.  Ghosts and Spooks (Free Spirits) are of lower rank than the Djinns and Demons.  So I hardly communicate with them.

In the past, I hardly talk to the Demons.  Mainly because they are the doers.  Djinns are very talkative and funny too.  Since I don't have any Djinns around except those two, the CCC is pretty much somber.

That brings me to the topic of Angels.  They are the backbone of the operation.  I hardly talk to Angels because they are specialists.  In Al Araf 7:7, there are 10 archangels.  Most of them are minding their own business.  So I let them be.

What I wrote here may or may not be true to you.  However, from my perspective as a writer, I believe in what I write. Still, you may consider what I wrote as fiction.

So, I leave it up to you to decide.  As for me, I write as I experience it.  Perceive which cannot be seen with the eyes - Musashi.

One thing is for sure, I am living the experience as it happens.  Perhaps in modern terms, I am schizophrenic.  Let's not worry about the terminology.  As far as I am concerned, the experience is true to me.

For example, I don't see Darkness all the time.  As far as I can recall, I only encountered Darkness three times during the entire duration.

Oh, well...  There are part of my nightly ranting.  The bigger picture is the quit smoking, diet, and exercise.

Avoir!
SJ 4964     

 

30/1/24 Back to Apple and No Apple

 That is the best strategy.  Unless there is a certainty.  In this case, there is no certainty.  Therefore I will remain noncommittal.

The condition is ONE TRIBE.  If there is no ONE TRIBE, it will be pointless to proceed with Option A.  Unless I go ahead and proceed and be ready to fail.

Actually, I don't mind Option A but it must be justified.  If not, Option B is the defacto.

If I forgo all expectations, that will be the final outcome.  The reason why this is Apple and No Apple is because I still have expectations.  Suppose I set no expectations.  I can then narrow down the possibility to either ONE TRIBE *o[f] (or) no ONE TRIBE.

* Right, then it is clear cut.  It is conditional.

I can also choose to run or not to run.  However, I will prepare for the run.

The Apple and No Apple is a straightforward decision.  So is money and no money.

Once I decided on Dokkodo, these matters became so minute.  I am at point zero.  Any addition is a plus.  What is there for me to worry?

Everything is on my terms.  

So now I am thinking about reinforcing Dokkodo.  The IP Sales is a done deal.

If I am to cut my ties with TraXX, I just won't submit my invoice.

Since the smallest number is one, I just reduced it to one.  If necessary I forgo everything.  In essence, I reduce myself to Dokkodo.  I am mentally prepared for that.

 

30/1/24 Nothing happens by accident

 Before anything big happens, there is always a telltale sign.  In this case, the telltale sign is the inaction of the various parties involved.

I am very mindful of these inactions because they are my barometer in moving forward.  Unless there are drastic changes, I will use these indicators as my guide to zero in on my mission.

They set the precedence for my journey forward.

30/1/24 I am changing my strategy

 I am not going to hope for the best-case scenario.  Instead, I'm going for the worst case and riding along with it.

There is no need for me to expect the best since I am dealing with the worst possible instance.

I might as well conclude that I am the only one who is going on this trajectory and therefore I just go with what I think is best for myself.

Nothing seems to work.  The world is still scurrying with the redundant issues.

I don't see progress.  Therefore, I just proceed with Option B and get on with my life.

The first priority is ONE TRIBE.  If that is not met, then the rest of the plans are nothing more than clouds in the coffee.

Life is like that.  I will not bend over my back to make people believe.  They have to fight for what they believe in.  As for me, I will flow and time will follow.

I have to be firm on this matter.  I had made a proposal.  I don't even know if it has been accepted.

I have two options right now.  If ONE TRIBE is on, we proceed with Option A. If not we proceed with Option B.  Looks like the situation now is leaning toward Option B.

Make it so...

Through my observation, the inclination is toward Option B.

Avoir!
SJ 4964

    

30/1/24 This is how I manage Apple and No Apple

 I don't commit.  Everything is based on the input that I receive from time to time.

No point in committing to something that nobody else is ready to commit.

After all, I have absolute power.  I decide on what to do with my power.

OK, over and out..

I want to chat with Darkness.

Avoir!