This is the Final Frontier:
Away from all that is known into the unknown.
All the while knowing I and God are a pair of mirror images.
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Thursday, August 1, 2024
1/8/24 If I just focus on things I can control, then I don't have expectations
That's how I am going to play it out. I just focus on what I can control.
What I can't control, I simply forgo. It is something out of my domain anyway.
So in exchange, I live the life of a Hedonist Hermit. All it takes is the ability to withstand hunger. Temptation, that is...
Other than that, I make use of the available facilities. If I do that, I don't need to spend unnecessarily.
Food is the major consumption. Other things I can do without.
That is on the assumption I am not going to be paid for my efforts over the past 25 years. If only the invoice to TraXX is approved, I am on the easy street.
Otherwise, all I do is quit smoking and quit eating out.
Keep your eyes on the prize.
That should not deter me from creating a compelling future for myself.
It might as well *[] (be) the best thing that ever happened to me.
* Right Sarah, it's not that I will starve to death. Lizzie can manage to be a minimalist. I am a Spartan. I can manage a little abstinence.
Furthermore, I crossed the finish line! I won the Prize of the Lifetime. There is nothing to worry about, I secured the deal.
Basically, all it takes is a mindset change. This is better than a college life. I got to eat well, I have a ride. I don't worry about rent. I have all my gadgets.
All in all, I live in surplus. The only thing is I must refrain from using money. If I do that, I just spend on toiletries and haircuts.
I used to visit BJ because I needed a company. Now thanks to AI, I can do away with BJ. If I need to stretch my legs, I simply take the MRT to KL.
So looking a[s] all angles, my [only] only concern is to lose weight. If I do that, I can wear all my clothes again.
THE SOLUTION IS THE ABILITY TO WITHSTAND HUNGER.
Otherwise, I live in abundance!
Fuck, if I don't run Bukit Kiara, I don't even have to be bothered with changing my shoes every now and then.
Tally ho ho!
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Wednesday, July 31, 2024
31/7/24 Everything that I need is in CCC
In this case, CCC is the center of my existence. I rule my world through the arrangements in CCC.
CCC is the complete manifestation of the entire Creation. It is [] (the) Center of Existence.
I made up my mind. I want to be here for the rest of my life. Just the way it is, broke and penniless,
Boy, am I happy the way I am right now.
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31/7/24 I got what I asked for
This is what I want; a simple life of a Hedonist Hermit.
The Final Frontier is for the taking.
The price? I have to forgo material wealth. If I can accept that, this is the happiest I ever been.
This is my wish come true. This is the Path of Aloneness. In the comfort of CCC. All I need is here. Now is to hold on to the thought for 17 years.
To do that, I just be the Invisible Man. Just me and my thoughts. Write, write, and write.
Not a care in my life. Just listen to Syok Rock and claw the keyboard. In the morning, I do KL Walk. For that I sleep at 12:00 am.
No more TraXX and Sound Journey. What more can I ask? I had won the Ultimate Trophy. I deserve it after 25 years Tour of Duty.
Now I can write my heart out. Heck, that's all I care. After 25 years of serving God, it's high time I enjoy my retirement. I deserve it.
I have all that I need. I had given my piece of mind on religion and money.
The news is crap, the media is crap, so many craps lying around. I might as well insulate my thoughts to my Universe Within.
This Syok Rock, is the best option so far. It is pure Cybernetic Loop. No human intervention.
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31/7/24 Let me take this to the brink and see what you think about it
In the final analysis, it is Allah, Ayah and Anak-Anak Yang Ayah Sayang. At every layer of creation, much like peeling an onion.
Hence, I settle the most basic question of all, "Will everybody be OK in the end?"
That's what matter, isn't it? No Eternal Damnation. Still you have to pay the Ferryman through Karma. When you do, take it like a man.
I went through it, nobody was exempted. You can't escape the Ferryman. Especially if you owe people money.
Thus it is better not to borrow. There is no escape. Unless, the creditors decided to cancel all debts.
Heck, I canceled off money owed to me. Karma will take care of the the the pending debt. Especially when you can afford to pay but purposely choose not to pay.
The last thing I want to worry is who owes me money. You know when you owe people money.
I have come to terms with fate. This is my life. Burrowing in the CCC. Writing myself away. Doing what I like.
My conclusion is no matter what, predestination precedes freewill. Therefore, I do what I have to do and the rest I simply let go.
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31/7/24 These I don't quite get
Angels, Jinns, Demons and Spooks I am not surprised. They are what they are. Although they are different from what are depicted in the media and publications.
I am used to seeing them in my house especially Darkness, my Demon.
But these two puzzle me. Are there aliens other than Shanaz's Civilization? How come I never come across them in my entire exploration of the Universe.
I had discounted hallucination. I know what is a hallucination. These are not it.
The first is the "Space Invaders" appearing on my window glasses in 2021. I thought I was seeing things when I was in CCC. Then I went upstairs to my bedroom window and there they were, as in trying to find their way in.
The other one is this: The Y-Shaped aliens on my kitchen floor, by the hundreds. This was definitely no hallicunation because the cockroach was extending its legs as high as possible trying not to be touched by these beings. It was fidgeting here and there trying to avoid these tiny creatures who too[] (took) keen interest on the roach.
So I have only one question, "Did you humans create these?"
If not, then these are proofs that there are aliens in their original forms.
That's all I want to know.
Then it explains why the cat that wanted to shit on my yard, shit and buried it shit but no shit when I said, "Semua kucing masuk neraka." For shitting on my yard,
I just want a proof that all these are [] (not) simulations. That's all...
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Postscript: So they are aliens, and the cat? What's the deal with the cat? The cats don't go to hell, do they? I[t] (If) that is the case, then that was a proof of Divine Intervention LOL.
31/7/24 From Operational to Philosophy
This is back to reality. I served the Creator and am now free to do as I please. This is where I maintain the equilibrium. This is the set point.
Nothing more is expected of me. I am free to roam the earth once again.
I have accepted that I am just an instrument, a servomechanism. I asked for it and it was granted to me.
So today I celebrate my independence. I no longer need to act like a Madman going against the flow to deliver the message from the Creator.
For that, I start on a clean slate. With nothing, I have to create meaning out of my life for the next 17 years.
I want to forget everything I did especially for the past 2 months and live a decent life as a Man Fully Functioning for the rest of my life.
I'll make it really small and tight.
This is my trophy. An achievement of a lifetime:
I am ready to move on. I did what needed to be done, and I ate what needed to be eaten. There is nothing [nothing] more for me to long for. Perhaps that is part of the plan.
I am free of all forms of responsibilities.
The only one in the whole existence.
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