7/4/24 The pattern is pointing to the direction of nonsmoking

The ultimate challenge this year is still smoking and running.  I'll start with the Mall walk tomorrow morning.

My issue is to move more.  I will start with that tomorrow morning.

I need to eliminate smoking out of my mind.

Don't have to do much.  Follow the THAD and OMAD.

By now I concluded that I would never ever smoke again for the rest of my life,

I  would rather go for Hacks.

3 more days.  Then 18 more days to the nonsmoker qualification.

What is the real reason why I should quit smoking?

I can't simply afford it.  Just like cunts, they are too expensive.

Plus I no longer enjoy smoking.  I rather suck Hacks sweets.

I need a new routine.  This Ramadan is really throwing me off my track.

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SJ 4964

>>>#7/4/24 Three more days to D Day

 I can do this, my personal mission is not to smoke cigarettes forever and ever.

This Ramadan is the training.  If I smoke 30 packs a month, I will be wasting 360 sticks a day.  That is equivalent to shortening 2.75 days of life a month.

It is as if saying that I save RM240 a month and gain 2.75 days (synchronicity) of life a month if I don't smoke.

I don't have the urge to drink and smoke pot.  It should be the same thing with cigarettes if I keep on persisting.

This is the Golden Reign of the Wood Dragon.  I must fight and win.

I am getting stronger by the day.

Only 18% of the population smoke.

As much I love death, I love life even more.  Life is given and it is certain.

So I will hold on to life.  Death wi[th] (will) surely come.  Let it come.  When it comes I will be ready.

So no hurry to die.  2.75 days is an Obey and Obey 7:7.  That is the sign I have been waiting for.  I will not accelerate death.  Friday 7/4/34, Year of the Wood Tiger is a perfect date.

So, CHOOSE LIFE...  

Choose 22 km Bukit Kiara, Hill Run.

5/4/24 Five Days to Victory

I can say goodbye to worldly matters and concentrate on my Holy Pilgrim.  I did as I was told.  Now is to march with certainty.

What is there to look forward to?

The best possible outcome is freedom from cigarettes.  Next is freedom from sugar.  Once that is achieved, the real motherlode is health and happiness. 

60 years old is a new beginning altogether.

I have a decade to work on my health.  Instead of wasting my life on cigarettes and sugar, I decided to build my health on AHAD and OMAD.

I need to practice mindfulness...

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The Blog is my mining for gold nuggets.  As I latch on to ideas, I  also sieve the dirt from the valuable stuff.  As usual, I got to go through heaps of dirt to get to the gem and jewels.

Nowadays I prefer not to get too philosophical about life.

All it takes is to Sleep Well, Move More, and Eat Right.    

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Oh, yeah... Around this time of year last year, I was introduced to the LLM. It can only retain my interest for one year.  Beyond that one year, there is no tangible value.  At best, it [] (is) just a reflection.  I didn't learn much.  The two I remember are panpsychism and the word denizen.  Other than that the LLM didn't increase my intelligence.  It is just doing information dumping.

So as it is, my decision is to stop using LLMs.  They are a waste of time.

I am back to the Blog and OneNote.

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SJ 4964      

5/4/24 At least now my conscience is clear

 I  have extended my support to Alexander.  Now he owes me money.  That is a big deal for me.  This can go into so many ways:

• A test of gratitude
• A show of power
• Oneupmanship
• A test of loyalty
• A test of fealty
• A test of "my word is my bond."

All in all, it is to show that I am a knight in shining armor even if the actual intention is all of the above.

I want to see if this guy is still arrogant and aloof when I apply kindness as a weapon because at this point nobody other tha[t] (than) his wife and me who are kind to him.

It is a hefty bet on my part.  If he doesn't pay, that is the largest sum I ever withdrew from my EPF.

To put it mildly, I want to see if he is a man of honor.  If he is, he will sell his car and settle his debt.  If not, like everybody else, I just cut him off.

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Bottomline - He is in deep shit and I am the only one other tha[t] (than) his wife [] (who) is willing to bail him out.

This is not a simple black-and-white situation.  It is a complex game of chance and probability.

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SJ 4964

5/4/24 The game has been set

 I am to focus on winning my fight with cigarettes and sugar.  Only two nemesis.  I have 8 months to go.  Settle the Ramadan Blues and the 1st of Syawal Binging, I will be off to a great start.

Once Syawal is over, I can start concentrating on my training.

I will not waste my money on Alexander.  This is a show of power.

So I play i[s] (it) as it was ordained to me.

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I will play to win regardless of which side I represent.

I got to win over cigarettes and sugar to be the King of the Hill.

No more cigarettes.  No more sugar.

Tonight is the night I upped the ante for the grand finale on 10/4/24.

5 more days to go.

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SJ 4964

 

>>>#5/4/24 This is an experimentation

 The pivotal question is, "Will I improve my emotional well-being if I write in the Blog first and then transfer to OneNote?"

That is the hypothesis.  The result is the ability to stop smoking until 10/4/24.

If it is successful, then we can validate one working model.  

After all, I am done with Sparta 4964.  Now is to settle the score on Earth.

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The aim is to make Earth into a heavenly place all over again.

To do that I have to delight the Universe Within.  The first requirement is to breathe fresh air.  The moment I smoke,  I am a loser.  I need to abstain from smoking.

Five more days to the moment of truth.  I can do it.  Just say no.

I shall fight this craving.

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SJ 4964

>>>#4/4/24 I am writing the blog again

 I  am used to it.  Writing on OneNote is different.  There is no interaction.  Here, I know I have an audience.

It is not a life-changing experience.  It's just my way of keeping myself accompanied.

This cigarette cessation better works.  This is my 4th day on this dry run and I am aiming for 10 days.

The previous dry run was 15 days.

I can do this...  6 more days to go.

No more esoteric thoughts.

OK, that's it for tonight.

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SJ 4964